… just be patient


I have to say that this is one of my favorite scriptures in the Bible. When I was first coming to truly know God, this scripture is what I put my money on.

There have been times when it was incredibly difficult to believe that everything I was experiencing was for my good – especially in the moment- but those same circumstances and issues have prepared me for where I am right now.

Trusting God through the muck of life shapes us into a more useful Christians. Someone God has been molding and shaping to do a specific work for Him. But, in order to see our struggles as a benefit to us and as preparation rather than “a bad hand dealt”, we have to understand that God has a wonderful plan for our lives. We have to trust that God is with us through it all. We have to truly believe that someday, that one day we will use the knowledge and experiences, the character improvements we gained for the building of God’s people and His kingdom.

That’s what this life is all about.

There are times we have to go through some tough times to truly learn who God is. Without knowledge of who He is, we cannot love Him. We can love the idea of Him but not Him. The thought that someone loves us and has a plan for us, who forgives us, and comforts us sounds fantastic until…….
but how will we move from an idea of God to knowledge of God without experience???

We can’t say we love a person until we know them… Until we have experienced them in the good and the bad. Seen them respond/react/behave in various positions & circumstances. Without knowledge we love who we think they are, we love the traits & behaviors we want to see. Not the person with 100% disclosure about their character, habits, or personality.

Everything is always grand until we get into a tough spot.

God knows that if everything is always good, we love the idea of Him. Not Him for who He is. He is a comforter- but how will we ever know that unless we have to be comforted? A healer- not to those who are well. A provider. A protector. A deliverer. Almighty. Gracious.

And, it’s when “all things” aren’t perfect. When “all things” are hard for a very long time. When “all things” are falling apart that we learn to trust and depend on our Savior. When we learn the most about Him. When we learn that He is exactly who He says He is when we learn to love and trust Him.

That is when “all things” work together for us. Our pasts and our struggles prepare us for a platform God will give us to share our stories, our testimonies, our experiences with others to give them hope and strengthen our faith.

We’re here for each other. Our “all things” aren’t only to be a benefit to us, but for the entire body! We all struggle with the same things – God planned it perfectly that way in order for us to be able to support each other and point us back to the truths of God in our times of need.

All things work together for good. For those who love God and are called to His purpose.

It will be okay. No matter what it is – it will always be okay and work out for our good & God’s glory!

A promise. You just have to believe it. Believe that our God cannot lie and will make good on what He says.

…. here’s to learning patience and discipline .. to being pushed closer to God & learning who He is while we wait for the good to come.


… early morning worship

I must say that it is true…. the more you learn and know about WHO God is, the more you want to worship Him for being just that – God.

The funniest part is, the older I get, the more I enjoy those old hymns that I hated singing when I was younger. The words didn’t make sense, there were too many “thous”, it was slow… But, if they aren’t true and applicable, if they aren’t the best prayers, and the most needed affirmations I don’t know what is.

So. Thanks to my Hillsong Pandora Station I heard these gems early this morning and HAD to share!!!
(The videos aren’t the most “up to date” or “entertaining” but that’s okay. I just chalk it up to the goodness of these songs and the truth of their lyrics not competing with visual distractions! lol

In Christ Alone – Geoff Moore & Adrienne Liesching
…. This song is my mantra right now and I’m so thankful to God for allowing me to hear it this morning. It’s what I need. My affirmation. My truth.

Open the Eyes of My Heart – Micheal W. Smith
… So thankful God opened my heart to something I wasn’t in the slightest bit interested in… He is truly amazing and I’m loving watching His plan unfold. I can see how all of the heartache and pain from the past couple of years has driven me to my knees, forcing me to learn to trust and depend on Him. Where would I be if I’d never experienced it?

Hope you enjoy these songs just as much as I have!!!
Have a great day!
Be bold in truth and love today!

Pray for us – we have another information meeting with another adoption agency tonight! We need guidance!

…. here’s to starting the morning off with worship!


… decisions, decisions

Being  a Christian is very often tough for me. Not because of the negative views that some may hold or anything like that but because I am such a EMOTIONAL person. I FEEL so much and have often made decisions, since I was a young girl, based on what I felt versus what was deemed right or wrong by WHOever…. It didn’t matter to me. What I FELT was right, was… what I FELT was wrong, was. Now, this mindset was great when my right lined up with the authority’s right, but when they clashed – they clashed. I wasn’t a problem child or incredibly disobedient, but I had a mind of my own. LOL. Obviously, for the most part, I ended up bending to do “their” right versus my own which left me quite unhappy and bothered, but what do you do?

For these reasons, I am thankful for a couple of things. The dismissal of The Law when Christ died on the cross and second for the fact that because Christ died on the cross, He bore my sins and allowed me access to a fellowship and relationship that I am not worthy of. That I don’t deserve. That I fail to deserve daily.

This blog, when it comes to writing about things of this nature, is very difficult for me to write. I feel that those who know me and know me well – the ones who know my struggles, horrendous mistakes, and past… the ones who have seen me at my very worst – are among those who discredit the truth in what I write, because I am the one who’s writing it. And, what I hate the most – I balk at myself. Those of US who are unable to truly see life as a journey, to see myself as a work in progress, and to see issues, struggles, and difficulties as what they are – issues, struggles, and difficulties that we ALL deal with – are missing out on the grace of God. These faults do not make us any more or less Christian… But, the things that make us desperately in need of the love and forgiveness of Christ. They are the very things that open our eyes to our need for Him and open our hearts to worship Him knowing that He loves, accepts, and forgives daily for all that we do.

Now, while I’m grateful for the lack of Law, I struggle greatly with not living a life based not on my feelings but based on the truths of God. I struggle with trusting God with it ALL and not leaning back on “what I know about myself”. The impatient spirit I have bucks and twitches when having to wait and go through a growing period. This part of me ignores the fact that we KNOW that the things that build faith and perseverance are sandpaper people and moments and not a life of relationships filled with constant peace and effortless relationships. The wonderful thing about these sandpaper people and moments are that even though they irritate, rub wrong, and minimize – it also smoothes and makes a more lovely piece of art.

I’ve learned to be quiet and be still. I talk a lot. A LOT. And, I’m always going or doing. I hate being idle. Thomas has had to MAKE me sit because I won’t knowing I can be doing something else. I find that in silence and stillness we can be just as productive as when we’re busy and moving. Sometimes, we need the stillness. We can ruin things by talking too much or not allowing ourselves the space to take inventory of what’s going on around us.

To decide and make up ones mind to trust God for an unknown outcome is not easy…. We just have to trust that one who is creating us to become everything He planned for us to become, to accomplish everyhing He has set out for us to, and to honor Him the way that He asks. These things often go against our nature…. we did not come into this world wanting to please God and we definitely don’t always feel like it.
BUT, everyday we decide to do things we don’t feel like doing. Because of parents ask us. Our bosses ask us. Or it’s expected of us.
God, the Creator of everything we set our eyes on expects certain things from us that He knows we can’t do our own but gives us His very power to do these things. Can we? Yes. But, will we?

If it weren’t for the issues, struggles, and difficulty – there would be nothing to sand away… there would be nothing that would position me to recognize that I NEED to be reshaped and worked on for the glory of God. I’m not dealing with or going through things issues for nothing – God is creating something beautiful from all of that. For His glory.

That… the beautiful outcome, becoming someone who brings Him glory…. is the outcome we have to believe Him for.

Decisions, decisions.

….. here’s to recognizing and honoring the One who is asking us to do the very things we don’t, for Him.
…. here’s to getting over our selfishness and pride and honoring the One we are so unworthy of.