Beauty beyond words

(null) Life as a mama just gets better everyday.

Every sweet, new sound or development warms my heart and makes me so proud. Their preference of me when they’re seeking comfort makes me feel good, worthwhile, and meaningful.

Successfully getting through each day…. Dr visits that boast growth in inches, pounds, and ounces make me feel like I’m doing my job well. When they search and smile at my voice thrills me like nothing else.

Grateful doesn’t even begin to scratch the surface of how I am…..

Forever indebted.

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No fear

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She laughs without fear of the future.
– Proverbs 31:25

(….. Or anything else for that matter.)
#serious
Lol.

The day may be hard but I am TRULY finding joy in all that’s around and within me. For starters, the truth that was stated over and over again in my reading this morning. We cry out to God & he saves us. He comes to us. He gives us what we need. He redeems and forgives. He consoles and comforts. Every time. Which causes us to worship him. Love him. Trust him. Depend on him. And, shows that he is who He says he is. Every time.

We can go back in “our history” as Saul says and recount the goodness of The Lord. And, worship and be glad in HIM. In Him, alone.

So after that, on to materialistic fleeting things. Lol.
I’m excited about unleashing this hair again today…. I curled it on flexi rods last night a bit differently than the other night, so I am pumped to see what it looks like.
Then, brunch (always) brings about some excitement… Hanging with the fam bam makes it more fun, too!!
And, dress wearing in the summer makes my heart smile.

I’m thankful for today. Thankful for the amazing texts & love I received today. It leaves me speechless and brings tears to my eyes. Y’all rock!

Happy Mama’s Day!!! Enjoy it!

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… stuck

Grrr, you guys… these past two weeks have been a bit    s l o w.

I’m not sure of what to say or where to really go next….. For some reason, I’m nervous about sharing. There have been times when I’ve been a little gun shy but even in those times there was nothing inside of me that urged me to keep quiet.

However,
I feel that way now.

I have a few thoughts that I believe are pointing me to the truths about who I am, but honestly I don’t want to go to that space with myself, alone. It’s not always easy to be transparent – even with yourself- because it forces you to deal with your junk. Right now, light is shining quite brightly on my junk. All of it.

It’s funny how situations and circumstances show you a part of yourself that you feel has been dealt with…. or, you’re brought back to a place you thought you matured in.

Flesh and spirit.

Spiritual warfare going on within your own mind/soul is frustrating. It’s hard.

Yes, it’s a constant warring within yourself, but I don’t ever remember battling something that was so inconspicuous. Even to my own eye.

I know that it’s not “me” who will conquer my sinfulness – my selfish responses, my outbursts of anger, or my impatience. I can’t make myself  forgive in the same ways God does – I have to depend on God for the ability to do that, it goes directly against my nature.

My prayer is that while I struggle to give everything to God, I will constantly be reminded of why I even have the opportunity to go to God in the first place. The sins of another I’m struggling to forgive are no bigger than my own sins that were forgiven when Christ died because of me. For me.

My soul gets it. My want my flesh to grasp it, as well.
(Realizing that my flesh will never “get” it. Nor does it want to.)

I’m reading, loving, and being convicted by Romans 8.
I love that Christ is our advocate, our burden bearer, and one who our freedom rests in. I love that He gives us a new way of life… how He gives us a more peaceful way to live & the encouragement and strength to live such a life in Him.

This adoption process brings so much out of you – I am aggravated by it while needing & desiring the sifting process at the same time.

Less flesh, more spirit.
Less me, more Christ.
More faith.
Less resentment and anger, more forgiveness and grace.
More grace. More grace. More grace.

As I move out of this … place, I want to definitely send out loads and looooads of thank yous and hugs.Your support and love has been insane & I appreciate it more than you know.

Trust that we are fine. That things are falling into place. Hopefully, I’ll be more comfortable with sharing exactly how these little puzzle pieces are fitting together soon. 🙂

… here’s to the anchor, strong and secure.

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