all clear!!!

6wppHe settles the barren woman in her home as a happy mother of children.
Praise the Lord!
-Psalm 113:9

…. and, a happy mama am I!!!!!

Favorite accessories these days: my diaper bag & stroller.
“beeeeeeep……. beeeeep”

And, I’m dusting off my gym membership ’cause now I’m cleared to get back into working out….
My self motivation quote: ” I want to pump **clap** you up!” lol…
Until the girls are old enough to hang out in the gym care & on days when home workouts are more feasible than heading out,
I’ll be doing body weight & light weight workouts.
And, when I say light weight I mean my babies.
That’s 12 lbs {combined} of squishy goodness that will be great for easing into a routine!

How’d you get into working out post baby?
What were your favorite exercises & how’d you incorporate you babes?

 

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2 weeks new

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! 

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This new year was pretty exciting for us because we rang it in with our girl, Logan…. Then, today, we brought home our sweet Rhyann. (Seriously, she’s sweet.) So, the old year ended and the new year began with our sweet girls with us. And, that is just about every drop of perfection I could ever imagine.

And, I can’t believe they are two weeks old. In the moment, I felt that I was in the hospital for forever, I thought the pain would never stop – and, I have a high tolerance. I thought the girls would never come home. And, it’s literally only been two weeks since I delivered, and three since I was admitted into the hospital. I think the saying goes “the days are long, the years are short” and if these two weeks are any indicator of how fast the years will fly by, I’m terrified. It’s amazing how things can change in literally a day. It’s both encouraging and heart breaking at the same time.

Two week in and we’re already starting to see patterns in their personalities, which is pretty neat. Rhyann is calm the majority of the time and she doesn’t need much; all she’ll ask is to be swaddled and fed. That’s it. Little Ms. Logan, on the other hand, is my snuggle bug. She loves to snuggle and would prefer to be in your arms than anywhere else! …. And, she has no problem with letting you know it. She also loves a swaddle and a nice bottle, but if you cuddle her close, you’ve won her over. The girls sleep like champs and are eating much, much better. We have our first doctor’s appointment tomorrow… it’s just a weight check, but I’m looking forward to it. I’m nervous about getting everyone ready and out of the house in time, but I believe if I prepare well enough it will alleviate a lot of stress tomorrow.

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See what I mean? Perfect personality capture.

I think this is the second year, I’ve ended my year with a word I want to focus on and center my life around. This year, my word is intentional. It’s so important to me because I saw the gravity of how difficult and broken things can become if we aren’t focused, brave, and thoughtful in everything we do.

One of my friends posted this scripture on Insta today and it was literally just exactly what was needed.
Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on towards the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. – Philippians 3:14

Now that I’m a mama, what I’m expected and called to do is so very different and much heavier than just anything I’ve ever experienced before aside from being a wife. This calling to mother, to nurture, to lead to Christ, to encourage…. To actively show patience, love, forgiveness, grace, and integrity in a way that I’ve never had to before. I have to treat my girls in a way that teaches them to trust me with everything no matter what and even in my faults and theirs. I have to behave in such a way that shows them Jesus even before they truly understand who He is. I want to love them and respect them in a way that always makes them feel like real people with real thoughts and feelings that matter.. while teaching them the balance of being a child and respecting rules, boundaries, and adults. And, that’s HARD because as adults our thoughts and priorities are so very different than those of a child, but matter just the same. Oh, and the patience. Two babies who tend to be hungry, wet, sleepy, and wanting cuddles at the same time. Two that can’t get anywhere without being carried and depend on you for it all….. takes a lot of patience. Because it’s day one, today has been much easier than I know the coming days will be, but I’m determined to be patient with my girls, especially when they can’t control or fully understand what it happening. (Sidebar: It’s funny how quickly & efficiently you ways to get things done!) Accomplishing these goals, even on the days that I try my best and still fail, require intentional planning and intentionally remaining in the moment, and intentionally staying face to face with Jesus.

I’m forming a list of ways in which I want to truly be intentional…….. and, working to not make the list so long. Probably need to prioritize and schedule some acts, but I also want to work on being intentional in the moment. I get so stinking distracted a lot and sometimes moments pass me by because I’m hesitant or scared or too into my own thoughts to focus. Sometimes it’s fear. Others it’s a time crunch and sometimes it’s just not feeling like it. Have to work on that.

Forgetting (read: {for me} forgiving) and straining – literally working to push ahead – is hard. But, so beneficial. It’s an opportunity to experience newness and growth. Am I afraid? Yes. I am. But, I’m looking forward to what can be. Looking forward to the opportunities that will be. Looking forward to watching my girls grow and experiencing life with them.

If 2015 is going to be anything, it will most definitely be sweet.

 

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the lesson of “and”

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(this ultrasound is from their 20w appt with the MFM… the one and only head/head picture we have!  they’ve been head/foot in some fashion ever since! lol)

There are so many things I want to teach my children. So many things I want to protect them from. I hope to pass on countless lessons and life tips that I hope they will cling to and find true and valid as they grow older.

One of the first ones is the lesson of “and“.

It’s simple three letter word that will probably be one of the first words they’ll learn to read/recognize.
A word that communicates togetherness. Connection. Association.

Rhyann and Logan.
Logan and Rhyann.

This is what they will hear from the very beginning of their life…. A connection and togetherness I pray they will find comforting and safe though I know they will also find frustrating. Their connection and bond will be one of the strongest relationships they will ever have and I want them to learn early on how sacred relationships are and how fragile “and” is. If not cared for and acknowledged appropriately, our relationships suffer.

One of my greatest desires is to teach my girls to honor each other and to their relationship. To celebrate each other and stand by each other. I want to teach them to be loving and kind. Patient and enduring. Forgiving and strong. In their relationships with self, each other, and those who are around them.

It’s so very easy to think that certain relationships can weather anything….. harsh words, unintentional mistakes, bad habits, hurts, or nasty arguments. From earlier that morning, or ten years ago. It seems second nature that members of the same family would have very close, solid relationships, that these relationships would have depth and loyalty. But, it sadly, isn’t always the case. I desperately need them to understand that even though some relationships may hold more weight than others, all relationships are important.

I want them to accept that with good comes bad – they can’t ever be separated because of our sin nature. That sometimes yucky things happen but there are also some pretty amazing things stored up for us, as well. And, that because of that warring of good/bad inside of us and the good/bad that are interwoven into the fabric of this world, it’s vital to learn to be forgiving, patient, and considerate in our relationships. It’s vital to relating to others and learning to be empathetic and considerate. And, at the same time firm and wise.

This lesson of “and” is such a big deal to me because Rhy & Logan will come into this world a part of a relationship that will require more of them sooner than singletons. They’re attached – they don’t leave the sandbox or their playdate to go home alone to decompress in whichever way they chose without having to deal with another person on some level. They will learn much sooner than their counterparts how difficult being in a relationship can be. But, they’ll also experience the joys and sweetness relationships a bit earlier, too.

Teaching them that relationships are broken by rigidness, unforgiveness, selfishness, a lack of consideration, intolerance, and impatience is a lesson that will be taught from the very beginning of their life.
We put so much pressure on those around us to give us what only God can…… so we fight because we’re disappointed, angry that we’re dealing with ____, and frustrated in our circumstances. We blame what and who we can see. We point fingers instead of being introspective enough to consider what we could be doing to exacerbate the situation.

We don’t look to and truly depend on the Lord, the one person who can bring peace and joy in the middle of havoc, that person who can give us wisdom,  what we want, and provide patience and the refinement of our character in order to endure.  Relationships can thrive and be put back together when we choose God in everything that we do, think of the others as more important than ourselves, learn to be content, and forgiving, humble, and patient. When we value each other and ourselves – not because we are so great, but because we know who we (and they) are in Christ.

Yes.

There is balance. Yes, relationships need boundaries and sometimes they way our relationships function needs to be adjusted a bit, and adjusted again. Sometimes, they end. I don’t want them to fear and attempt avoiding ending or adjusting toxic relationships – I want them to value the person as a person, no matter what the outcome.

And, ya’ll, sometimes people just need time. Time to mature and develop. Time to grow up. Space to learn. Time for God to work on their hearts. How much time is time? No one ever knows. How much time did you or do you need?

I want them to know that it will always be Rhyann and Logan. Logan and Mommy. Ryhann and Mommy. Logan and Daddy. Rhyann and Daddy. Mommy and Daddy. Them and us. Them and Jesus. All of us and Jesus. All of us and God.
We will always be not because we are a family; we will always be because of how we choose to treat each other and relate to each other; endure, persevere, show patience towards, and forgive each other. We will chose to love and respect, listen and confide in, support and cheer on. Especially when it’s hard.

Being a friends and a family will just make this life a bit sweeter.

Always.
Always together. Always supporting each other. Loving each other. Serving & validating each other. Learning and growing from each other. Teaching and correcting each other – because we are very aware and comfortable with the fact that children can open our eyes to things we do not see, and I hope to raise children in such a way that they will also be able to teach and show me where I’m wrong, too.

Relationships are tough. They aren’t always easy or fun. But, they have just as great an opportunity to be wonderful, as well. Those girls won’t always get along. They’ll hurt each other, fight, argue, and be mean but I want the foundation of their relationship to be so rooted in love and grace that it’s solid. It’s mendable. It’s fruit is joy, peace, true friendship, and depth.

I’m looking forward to discovering their little personalities and in what ways they will naturally gel and clash, how they are similar and so very different. 4 1/2 weeks out and I’m surprisingly mellow. Very chill, not frantic or frazzled. Stressed or in a panic. And, for that, I thank God!

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