… Saturday night fever

Random Saturday night post about a couple Pinterest quotes I unearthed from one of my boards today. Not feeling well + hubs is out of town = lots of downtime. And, walking up and down the stairs. While listening to your neighbors play the dress, shout, and train their dog. For our little community to be so small, it get get quite lively over here at random times of the day.

Anywho…. have fun with my thoughts. 🙂

One thing about challenges, frustrations, and life just hanging you upside down….. you get a different perspective about who you are. And, you learn to enjoy the view.
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As inconvenient as certain areas in my life are and as quirky as I know I can be, I deeply appreciate the twists and turns of this life. I’ve become grateful for hardship, for being uncomfortable, and for having to suffer through a few things. Your character can definitely be refined if you allow it. Your perspective can broaden and what you will learn about yourself will surprise you. And, the ability to self soothe (I know it’s a term used for kids but I think it definitely can apply to adults, as well) in crisis or periods of estrogen overload are crucial (especially for us ladies!!).

Strength comes from heavy lifting… the ability to get through comes from getting through some pretty difficult times…. and, thankfully smiling through it all comes from a hope and a faith that these tough days aren’t going to last forever and realizing that there is something to smile about in each and every one of them.

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I am very much a “say what you feel” kinda person. OBVIOUSLY… I blog just about everything that happens in my life if not directly, very indirectly (like this post!) …… but, I feel and I feel hard. Good and bad. I’m becoming so much more aware and sensitive to things that didn’t bother me before and I’m beginning to speak out more and more about those things. I’ve learned while still learning when to speak the good & the bad and when not to, how to say what needs to be said…. and, I learn best when I mess up royally. I’ve gotten a whole lot better but I still have a ways to go to reach my goal so lessons are annoying but exciting. Even good, encouraging words have their time and place.
I’ve got to learn to guard my heart a bit better, too. So many issues have their way of tugging at my heart strings that have no business. They drain my energy and can put a damper on my day.
But, this openness isn’t something I want to change – I generally enjoy this trait of mine… I think it’s important to tell people how you feel and to tell them often. I’m not always the greatest at telling often to people I don’t have direct contact with daily, but I’ll get better at that, too.

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There’s something about Winnie the Pooh that either confuses you or makes you happy. Maybe both. I think I can be a mixture of strange yet captivating so I can understand his struggle. lol. But, I love this little quote of his. This one and “Love it not spelled, it’s felt”… everyone say “awwwwww….”. I love love. Literally think it’s the most wondrously bit of perfection ever created. It changes everything. It makes you bold and courageous. I truly believe that loving another person with everything makes you a better human being. Love is an action. The very nature of it makes you want to sacrifice, put the other person ahead of yourself, and often sends you off to do things you never would have imagined. Love will have you enduring many difficult and uncomfortable situations, forgiving when that’s the last thing you want to do, and accepting things you don’t quite like. But, isn’t that amazing? You grow because of love. Especially when the love for the other supersedes your own happiness. In a perfect world our own selfish desires and wants wouldn’t effect us loving in action in the many ways it requires but it can… When it does, the hope is that your loved one is able to love in action and show patience, forgiveness, and grace. And, you’re able to keep it moving fairly quickly and seamlessly. We want those sparkling gems when we’re selfish so lets be quite generous when they’re needed by another!

…. here’s to loving fiercely and living life with purpose where we are. You never know where you’ll end up.

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… a tiny fierceness

My current, most beloved, and longest lasting screen saver to date…….

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I really just realized how small I was. “Just realizing” meaning within the last year or so. After my 13 yr old sister and 11 year old niece continuing to inch past me, centimeter by centimeter. Along with the fact that I’m also the same size as some 2nd & 3rd graders. I literally can’t wrap my head around being the same size as (and, at times smaller than) prepubescent children. I look at them and I don’t see it.

I don’t typically have a “small” attitude/ personality but when I do, it’s an active choice to be more thoughtful of the other person’s feelings and perspectives than my own, slow to speak, and patient. Most days, I consider myself to be a strong person and I work very hard at getting physically stronger, as well as mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.

But, there are times I feel small and frail. And, like most people, I typically equate small and frail to defenseless and not very advantageous … Most people step on and over what is small and are quick to try to take advantage of size.

There are the times I have to remind myself that even though I’m small, I’m quite strong and feisty.

One of the greatest lessons I’ve learned from my infertility is how strong I am and have the potential to be. When I wonder if I am really strong enough to go through more rounds of treatment knowing what I’m getting myself into and what could happen – I know that I can. The only question is whether I want to or not.

I’m grateful for my infertility for many reasons but one is truly for the heartbreaks and soul aches it has caused. Because of it, I’ve learned so much about myself, I’ve realized that I have the potential and ABILITY to do so many different things… And, drives me to do more than I often don’t think I can. And the progress of those pains, efforts, and ultimately successes keep me going.

You learn to manage. And, I’m hoping, that the stronger I get, the less you I myself “managing” and the more I find myself moving on with much more ease and less effort because I’ve gotten stronger. The tough balance for me is between becoming callous and hard towards life and dealing with the emotions and lessons of life as it ebbs and flows with a mature perspective. I like managing because you are dealing with the emotional part but that logical part is there to give “sense” to the situation, it keeps you from jumping off the ledge. And, grows you up.

Obviously, the main thing that keeps me from standing so close to the ledge and gives me the desire to manage so I can go on with life when the craziest of things happen, is the fact that it’s all been planned and laid out for me. And, even when I veer off and cause myself pain, God is still there.

I’m quite sure I’ve posted the one you need video before…. But, I listened to it today and it got to me. I tend to/have to listen to it from a Heavenly Father/daughter perspective…. Listening to it from an Earthy father/daughter perspective kills me simply because I think of Thomas and how he could possibly miss out on such an amazing experience.

I appreciate knowing that no matter the heartaches I go though, no matter how small, fearful, or fearless I think or feel I am or perceived to be – He is there and makes it all better. Even when I’m the one who spilled the milk I’m crying over, He wipes it up with patience, love, and grace. Then, hands me another glass.

… Here’s to a fun sized, small-ish person like myself having everything needed to go through all life with a fierce strength built from managing and dealing with it all…. with a smile. 🙂
Oh! And, to music and quotes. They, too, make my heart beat!

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… quick favorites

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I love quotes…. And, I ALWAYS have a quote as my lock screen to encourage or remind me of whatever I feel I need at the moment.

Yesterday was a bit hard and I wanted to create a picture collage with a quote to always remind me of who I am regardless of outside circumstances… Then, I thought…. “I need the cross.”.
I say that because the cross ALWAYS reminds me of who I really am in-spite of all of my valiant efforts to be great (Romans talk here…), whose I am because of Christ, and who I am in Christ. I’m working to get to the place where that knowledge fully affects my feelings & changes my mood but I’m not quite there yet.

Anywho, these quotes were my thoughts in this exact order.

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I woke up from my nap and moved on with my evening.

…. here’s to just moving on.

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