… Saturday night fever

Random Saturday night post about a couple Pinterest quotes I unearthed from one of my boards today. Not feeling well + hubs is out of town = lots of downtime. And, walking up and down the stairs. While listening to your neighbors play the dress, shout, and train their dog. For our little community to be so small, it get get quite lively over here at random times of the day.

Anywho…. have fun with my thoughts. ūüôā

One thing about challenges, frustrations, and life just hanging you upside down….. you get a different perspective about who you are. And, you learn to enjoy the view.
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As inconvenient as certain areas in my life are and as quirky as I know I can be, I deeply appreciate the twists and turns of this life. I’ve become grateful for hardship, for being uncomfortable, and for having to suffer through a few things. Your character can definitely be refined if you allow it. Your perspective can broaden and what you will learn about yourself will surprise you. And, the ability to self soothe (I know it’s a term used for kids but I think it definitely can apply to adults, as well) in crisis or periods of estrogen overload are crucial (especially for us ladies!!).

Strength comes from heavy lifting… the ability to get through comes from getting through some pretty difficult times…. and, thankfully smiling through it all comes from a hope and a faith that these tough days aren’t going to last forever and realizing that there is something to smile about in each and every one of them.

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I am very much a “say what you feel” kinda person. OBVIOUSLY… I blog just about everything that happens in my life if not directly, very indirectly (like this post!) …… but, I feel and I feel hard. Good and bad. I’m becoming so much more aware and sensitive to things that didn’t bother me before and I’m beginning to speak out more and more about those things. I’ve learned while still learning when to speak the good & the bad and when not to, how to say what needs to be said…. and, I learn best when I mess up royally. I’ve gotten a whole lot better but I still have a ways to go to reach my goal so lessons are annoying but exciting. Even good, encouraging words have their time and place.
I’ve got to learn to guard my heart a bit better, too. So many issues have their way of tugging at my heart strings that have no business. They drain my energy and can put a damper on my day.
But, this openness isn’t something I want to change – I generally enjoy this trait of mine… I think it’s important to tell people how you feel and to tell them often. I’m not always the greatest at telling often to people I don’t have direct contact with daily, but I’ll get better at that, too.

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There’s something about Winnie the Pooh that either confuses you or makes you happy. Maybe both. I think I can be a mixture of strange yet captivating so I can understand his struggle. lol. But, I love this little quote of his. This one and “Love it not spelled, it’s felt”… everyone say “awwwwww….”. I love love. Literally think it’s the most wondrously bit of perfection ever created. It changes everything. It makes you bold and courageous. I truly believe that loving another person with everything makes you a better human being. Love is an action. The very nature of it makes you want to sacrifice, put the other person ahead of yourself, and often sends you off to do things you never would have imagined. Love will have you enduring many difficult and uncomfortable situations, forgiving when that’s the last thing you want to do, and accepting things you don’t quite like. But, isn’t that amazing? You grow because of love. Especially when the love for the other supersedes your own happiness. In a perfect world our own selfish desires and wants wouldn’t effect us loving in action in the many ways it requires but it can… When it does, the hope is that your loved one is able to love in action and show patience, forgiveness, and grace. And, you’re able to keep it moving fairly quickly and seamlessly. We want those sparkling gems when we’re selfish so lets be quite generous when they’re needed by another!

…. here’s to loving fiercely and living life with purpose where we are. You never know where you’ll end up.

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… how he loves us

Over the past couple of years, I’ve done a lot of out-of-the-blue crying and some no-reason-at-all crying but more than that, some did-you-see-that? that kinda crying because our family wasn’t expanding. Because everyone else’s was. Because procedures weren’t working. Because my injections and meds made me insane. Because life was hard. Because of the pregnant women in the doctor’s office. Because what is supposed to happen naturally wasn’t happening at all. And, because I was tired, I was hurting, and I was empty.

But, now….

I do a lot of that same crying for no reason and out of the blue because I see how good God has been and is being towards us. I see how He was moving in my life, in our life, and how much He truly was guiding and preparing us. I see His love in prevention and in His “no’s”. Because He is bringing people to us and opening doors for us that I never knew about, that I never expected, and to be quite honest didn’t think we’d get into even if they did exist. You see our luck has been horrible. Because I am grateful for the time without, the hardships, and the pain. Yes.

The did-you-see-that tears that just fall are subjec to¬†the deposit notification emails letting me know that someone good, someone gracious, and someone generously has taken a bite and wants to help us. They fall when I showed Thomas the finished t-shirts that I created myself (what?! I’ve never done that before!) and they are us… wh0 we are and what we believe. And, people like them. They are ordering them. Our friends are sharing¬†our shirts¬†on their Facebook pages and their friends want them. Because we are getting emails from a nationwide adoption support agencies that help families ACROSS THE WORLD adopt and expand their families… giving homes to orphans and would be orphans or worse. They fall because I have never felt the kindness and love of people¬†the way I am feeling it now.

Because people care. Because they are generous. Because they love us. Because they believe in good deeds and giving as a lifestyle. They sow. They trust and believe in a God who has saved them and brought them into a family of people, of believers, who take care of one another and who help one another. They believe in adoption and what it means for families and for children.

I am overwhelmed and overjoyed. I can hardly believe it. Sometimes I literally just sit in awe. I used to cry and think “Why us? Why is this so hard? Why isn’t this working?” And, THIS was why. I would have never known or understood praising God and glorifying Him in this way if I hadn’t have experienced so a painful process. I know I wouldn’t. I would complain to Thomas about why life had to be so hard – the answer is simple. So, that God can be glorified when everything comes together and works for our good…. but, first and foremost His glory.

I am glad. Hear me when I say, GLAD for those horrid two years. They were hard. They were unimaginably hard. Not all the time. Certainly not. But, the lows were pretty low and the tough times left some pretty big bruises but how thankful I am for those times.

The hard times are not over.. They never will be. We will struggle through this process. We will have to endure the difficult and trying continuously in every facet of our life. That I know. There will be ups and downs. But, one thing I know for sure – He will not leave me nor forsake me. Ever. I’m not walking this journey alone. I am not walking with no destination. I may not know where it is or how close I am to the finish but I do know that I will finish and that the journey is good for me.

I used to think that those who had everything so easy were so lucky…. the ones who never really had to struggle because things seemed to come so easily for them. First, I know that all things that looks easy, aren’t. And, that perspective and attitude determine a lot more that position. And, second, I’m so thankful that my path has been rocky. That difficult times were written in my story. That I have scares and battle wounds – I wouldn’t have it any other way.

….. oh, how He loves us.

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