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(sick of my red dress pix yet?)

How are we feeling??!?!?!
 Only really uncomfortable when I’m trying to get to sleep. They can jolt me a bit with their movements…. they’re getting stronger and the space is getting tighter and tighter so it gets pretty interesting to feel them moving around. I enjoy it and trying to figure out what limbs are protruding from my belly! Rubbing my fingers over them and watching them try to get comfy is getting sweeter and sweeter as we get closer to delivery. Which I have no idea when that would be which is a little bit scary. Eek! I know I will miss them so much when they’re “out”…… But, then again…. I know it’s going to be even sweeter playing with them in real life!

What’s going on with the bump?!?!
So far so good! I’m down to weekly appointments – which lets ya know it’s TIME. I’m so excited about seeing them this week and checking in with the doctor. I’m looking forward to getting their car seats installed, washing their clothes, and finishing up their nursery! It’s surreal. Absolutely surreal and this is part of what makes me so stinking emotional. I mean, how in the world do I deserve these two baby girls? Yes, we’ve been through more than I would have liked to for much longer than I would have liked to. But, oh my goodness.

I’m not sold on any specific delivery process. If I had my way I’d have a natural delivery in a whirlpool with low lights, lots of candles, and soft music. lol. I mean, seems like the most peaceful way to come into the world, yea? lol. But, I’ll be delivering in an operating room (so not exciting) and if the girls haven’t repositioned themselves and stay as they were at my last appointment (A: breech, B: vertex), I’ll be having a c-section. Which isn’t so bad because I can make sure my hair and makeup are camera ready. Vain? Possibly, but I’ve waited a looooong time for this and I want to make sure the pictures I’ll be looking at for the rest of my life are amazing. lol.

So, how are you feeling?!
All of the hormonal ups and downs have been completely averted until NOW. And, I’m emotional but I don’t do a whole lot of crying. Not a terrible amount…. I like to think that I can cover most emotional responses with logic and reality. But, it’s never been harder than it is now and it is scary.

Anything else?
Not really. I just trying to get ready in as many ways as I can without stressing myself out too much.

From mommy….
So ready to meet you girls. This is absolutely unreal. I can’t imagine how perfect you’ll be!

– mommy

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the big three….oh

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How are we feeling??!?!?!
Definitely feeling like I’m 30 weeks! lol…. Excited about my weight gain, excited about getting more prep done for the girls, and having the best dreams about the day and first few moments they arrive!!!

The fact that these girls will be here in a matter of weeks, more than likely by the end of the year, is literally thrilling and more exciting than anything I’ve ever looked forward to. I’m especially stoked about the first few weeks/couple of months when your only goals are to teach them to depend on you….. I mean, all that means is cuddling you all day and feeding you when you’re hungry. I may be sleep deprived and hurting but to be able to just sit and cuddle “all day”, to watch them sleep, and watch them grow and do new things is perfect enough for me!

What’s going on with the bump?!?!
The bump is doing just fine! The girls are weighing in at 3.6 lbs. and 3.1 lbs. so we are all very pleased with their growth. Hoping my 3.1 lb-er slows her little self down so she can keep her weight on! Of the two, she weighs the least and has the high heart rate and it’s all because she’s so stinking active!! (And, all of that is determined by her mama, not the doctors! lol. But, when you compare her to her very relaxed sister who is almost hitting 4 lbs with a lower heart rate…. I think it’s obvious what’s going on. And, I want her to chill so she can have a higher birth weight. lol.30w
Contrary to what I thought, there is plenty of room for them to move and flip because that’s exactly what they have done. Baby A was vertex 2 weeks ago, now she’s breech. Baby B was breech, now she’s vertex. So, if Baby A chooses to stay put and not flip one more time – I’ll be having a definite c-section. How do I feel about that? Well, once I found out we were expecting twins, even though I was still very serious about a natural water birth (seriously.), I chose to be very open to the method of my girls’ delivery. What I want is a lot less important than what’s best for the girls. So, if that means a c-section…. a c-section it will be!!!!


So, how are you feeling?!
Greeeaaattttt!!! These kicks to my cervix aren’t comfy at all and the girls movements can be uncomfortable, but aside from the physical……. I’m just grateful. Excited. Y’all……….. I’m having TWO baby girls in a few. This time last year I would have never thought that this is how I would be ending the year. EVER. It literally makes me cry. I’m simply praying that we continue to have an eventless pregnancy and safely make it to 37 weeks. I’m praying that my girls won’t have to spend any time at all in the NICU and that they are as healthy as they can possibly be. And, that they latch on well. And, I produce enough milk for everybody. lol.

Anything else?
Absolutely…… A couple of things.
If you people keep gifting my girls such amazingness, you’ll force me to have to try to keep up with you. Which means we’re going to be in a lot more trouble than I thought!!! Like, how adorable are these hangers? How can you expect me to actually USE these beauties? I promised to hang ONE clothing item on them so that is what I will do… then, they’re framed or hung on the wall. Sorry. hangers then….
I told you guys back here that my friend Christin of ChristinShootsPeople asked me to write our story, our journey through infertility, adoption, and now our pregnancy. And, then she went and published it in her magazine. What. Yes. So, naturally. I bought a couple copies and was stoked about getting a complimentary digital copy.
photo 1-5This edition also has a pretty neat write up from my friend Leah about losing your pregnancy weight in a healthy way! She’s absolutely amazing and also has an e-cookbook and does cooking classes and private events. I’m so grateful to be surrounded by amazing women who are serious about their passions and pursue their dreams… then, dream up more dreams to chase! It’s incredibly inspiring.
Anywho, go here and order your copy!!! You won’t be disappointed!!!!!

From mommy….
well, mama packed on 4 lbs in two weeks so…. ***pats self on back***…… and, we’re slowing down to make sure we don’t over do it!! But, I’m grateful that the doctor’s are pleased with your weight gain and the fact that y’all haven’t tried to make your appearance yet! lol. Stay put, we’re not quite ready for you yet! Still can’t wait to meet you though!!!

– mommy

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gender reveal!!!

Today, we celebrated.
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For going on four years, Thomas and I have struggled through infertility and adoption with high hopes and broken hearts. I had given up on the possibility of becoming pregnant at all and made peace with that. I was able to move forward with adoption and building our family in a way that so clearly displayed the Gospel and would allow us to live that out loud.
I feel in love with adoption – with the concept, the work that went into it, the families and women who’ve adopted and were so passionate about such a sacrificial, selfless, and loving act.
But, ultimately that is not the way God chose to allow us to expand our family.
And, we accepted that knowing that God had a beautiful plan for our lives, that He would give us the desires of our hearts, and that He is sovereign and loved us deeply.
We moved forward choosing to enjoy the summer and revisit expansion (lol) in August.

Turns out, God blessed us in a way that I never, ever saw coming.
A way that would blow my mind, but would make so many around us laugh as they knew God would do something spectacular in our lives.

I knew to expect the unimaginable, but never thought to expect that in May I would find out we were expecting and then in June learn that we’re expecting twins.

So, today.
We celebrated the journey and our babies with a  small gender reveal.
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I thought it would be super cute to frame a few of our ultrasound pictures… I wanted each gender to be a surprise so I chose to envelope Baby A and Baby B’s genders and box them with a bow…. each guest with their own box.
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I couldn’t even get through thanking everyone for coming, but thankfully Thomas stepped in and took over explaining a bit of our journey, thanking everyone, and giving little tidbits about each of the babies. He also went around taking a poll of what everyone’s thoughts about the genders!
I jumped in to lead everyone through opening their boxes; we opened each enveloped together which was really fun and exciting!

And, the envelopes held the genders of each baby…
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YAY!
TWO GIRLS!!!
Although, I was hoping for a combo pack…. a girl and a boy…. I am so grateful and thankful to prepare for two girls!!

Once we came home, although completely exhausted, utterly/uncomfortably full, I took our weekly photos and got to relish opening a box and enjoying the envelopes myself!
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 We’ve had a long and tiring yet beautiful and eventful day.
Next up…. the baby shower!

Time is winding down and I’m sure the day we are to meet our girls will be here before we know it!!!
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And, for all of you who have been rooting for us, journeying with us, praying for us, and encouraging us for any length of time:
Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
You have no idea what your support means to us, what your emails, comments, texts, and messages touch us.. touch me.
I am so grateful for you and your excitement, love, and joy for our daughters and this new chapter in our lives is nothing short of breathtaking and surreal.
Thank you.

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