… hello, love

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Oh, sweet girl.

I can’t believe that you’re a girl.
I can’t believe that we’re here.
That you’re ours.

You were an idea, a hope, and a prayer.
But, now you’re a girl. With a name and a mama who is about to go NUTS with preparing for you.

I was so afraid. Stalling and keeping the reality that this is actually happening at arms reach.

But, every time I’m still enough to think about what’s going on, when I’m praying, or just resting in the quiet & peace of God- I can’t stop the tears.

Holland.
I hope to be a great mama to you – I wonderful example of patience, grace, and love. I hope your daddy and I balance parenting well; teaching you to be responsible, yet adventurous and spontaneous. I hope we show you how to take risks and stand up for what you believe in.
I hope that we live our beliefs out loud… Loud & consistent enough for you to understand and believe that there is a Savior who accepts you no matter what you do and loves you more than you can imagine. Who offers you grace and forgiveness. Who answers prayers and never leaves your side. Who will willingly be live inside of you, guide you, redeem & save you – if you ask.

I thank God for you. For your health. For knitting you together so perfectly. For answering my prayers by giving me you.

I can’t wait for the day to tell you all about our story, our journey to you.

You have already humbled me.

Thankful that God honors his word. That He teaches faithfulness and trust.

“Blessed is she who believed that there would be a fulfillment of what had been spoken to her by The Lord.” Luke 1:45

…. Here’s to be held and comforted by Christ, to remaining steadfast and trusting a God who sees me with a clarity and love I can’t fathom.

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… proud & preparing

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Hi, my name is Alaina and I’m an adoptive mama.

I am so excited about our calling to adopt.
Expanding our family by adding a child who needs a home is so exciting to me……

A year ago, I wasn’t in this place.

Adoption wasn’t on my radar. I still wanted children who looked, acted, and sounded like me.
Until I was hit with the revelation that we all have one Father who desires us to immolate His character, to act like Him and love others the way He loves us, and share His love the way His son did by forgiving the sinful (that’s all of us) and helping the needy (which is all of us, as well).

We welcome the opportunity to provide for a kiddo. It’s an honor and a blessing to us both.

I’ve said before that the most important part of this journey has been amazing. I’ve met some pretty amazing women who are so supportive and create this network of adoptive mamas who love God.

And, there’s a conference for mamas just like us, just for us. Held by us.
I’m excited. I’m proud. I can’t wait.
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This March, I’ll be attending a conference called Created for Care! Worshipping, adoptive mamas who will be flooding Atlanta to MEET (in person!), support each other, share stories, and pray for each other.

I’m honestly hoping I’ll be able to add some pretty spectacular paragraphs to this chapter of our lives but we’ll wait and see!

I’m thanking God for this opportunity and a supportive husband who wants to tag along. The conference is for mamas, but I’m sure he’ll be able to find something to do during the day. In Texas! Lol. I’m kidding. We’ll see!

Thanking God for this opportunity.

Man, if I wouldn’t take my diagnosis or the inability to not have children back for a thing. Not a thing.

My entire perspective has been challenged and completely changed.

I’m grateful. God’s plans are absolutely better than our own.

… here’s to willingly accepting God’s plans for our lives knowing they are for our good and His glory. How can you deny them?

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… like a ton of bricks

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I want a baby.

Which seems obvious because we are in the process of adopting, but this is the first time in a very long time I’ve felt this.

A fervor, a strong desire that feels like a need, an emotional pull. A must.
I haven’t cried over wanting a baby in quite some time….. I don’t even remember when the last time I cried about a baby was. But, today…… out of nowhere, here I am, tears flowing down my face as the thought “I want a baby.” came and went.

I don’t know what this is the beginning of, but I’m thankful that I am anchored and ready for what could come next. I’ve enjoyed life post the “I-can’t-have-a-baby” rollercoaster/darkness. And, I am in no way planning or hoping to go back through that the same way I did a few years ago.

I’ve found peace & contentment where we are. I’m so thankful and glad to be adopting. I know our time is coming. I know and believe that God hears us and is comforting us as we wait.

So, whyyyyyyyyyyy this now?!

I’m trusting God’s timing. Trusting His words when He says in Ecclesiastes 3:11 that He makes all things beautiful in their own time. Trusting that we are being prepared for our future accomplishments and blessings. Trusting that His plans for us are for our good and His glory….. That He has the most amazing plans for our lives. That He is with us even until the end of the age.

I know these plans will cause us and everyone who hears our story to worship and glorify Him in a mighty way.

Oh, thank you God for Your goodness and grace. For your plans and omniscience. Comfort me and lead me in our wait. You are mine and I am yours- thank you for loving me with an unconditional love forgives, redeems, and renews. Thank you for keeping me during the worst, I know that you will forever be by my side. Amen.

…. here’s to trusting a God who will never leave you, who had thoughts of you before the creation of the world, who dresses you better than the lilies of the field, & loves you with a fierceness.

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