… hello, love

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Oh, sweet girl.

I can’t believe that you’re a girl.
I can’t believe that we’re here.
That you’re ours.

You were an idea, a hope, and a prayer.
But, now you’re a girl. With a name and a mama who is about to go NUTS with preparing for you.

I was so afraid. Stalling and keeping the reality that this is actually happening at arms reach.

But, every time I’m still enough to think about what’s going on, when I’m praying, or just resting in the quiet & peace of God- I can’t stop the tears.

Holland.
I hope to be a great mama to you – I wonderful example of patience, grace, and love. I hope your daddy and I balance parenting well; teaching you to be responsible, yet adventurous and spontaneous. I hope we show you how to take risks and stand up for what you believe in.
I hope that we live our beliefs out loud… Loud & consistent enough for you to understand and believe that there is a Savior who accepts you no matter what you do and loves you more than you can imagine. Who offers you grace and forgiveness. Who answers prayers and never leaves your side. Who will willingly be live inside of you, guide you, redeem & save you – if you ask.

I thank God for you. For your health. For knitting you together so perfectly. For answering my prayers by giving me you.

I can’t wait for the day to tell you all about our story, our journey to you.

You have already humbled me.

Thankful that God honors his word. That He teaches faithfulness and trust.

“Blessed is she who believed that there would be a fulfillment of what had been spoken to her by The Lord.” Luke 1:45

…. Here’s to be held and comforted by Christ, to remaining steadfast and trusting a God who sees me with a clarity and love I can’t fathom.

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… surprise! surprise!

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The 28th of April marked 6 months since I cut all of my relaxed hair off and began wearing my hair in it’s natural state.

The BIG CHOP is HUGE…. I was a bit devastated and uneasy initially at having such short hair because I’ve always had lots of HAIR…. so to have so little was a bit of a shock. You can read more about my chop here

I only straightened it to get a trim but I also got the bonus of seeing how much my hair has grown!!! I’m loving it!

We went from this a few weeks before the chop…
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To this in November….
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To here, last sunday…
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And, as of yesterday, we are here..
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We… yes, my hair and I are one. We have grown so much over the past six months and I have enjoyed every bit of it.

There’s a freedom and beauty in being who you were created to be…. no chemicals or anything like that to alter your appearance.

Our hair is our glory…. and, I found that I was very prideful and that a portion of my self confidence was tied to my hair. How long it was. How it looked. In contrast to being all of my confidence being completely rooted in who I was.

Now, I still love my hair. I’m obsessed with my curls. I’m not yet over how CURLY it is…. how it coils…. how it looks liks little springs all over my head. I love it! lol.

There’s a beauty in natural hair that is difficult to explain unless you’ve experienced the “chop”. Or, if you’ve grown it out but I truly see it with the chop.

Your face, your beauty is visible. There’s a brightness in your face that is hidden by hair. There’s nothing to hide behind.

I’ve never been so confident post my chop than I’ve ever been in my entire life. I’ve learned so much about who I am, I’ve stepped out in so many other areas because of the confidence and the mindset change that has occured. I had to completely change my mind about what was beautiful, acceptable, and do-able in regards to style, fashion, and more.

It’s been a pretty cool journey and I’m more than glad that I chose to cut alll of my hair off. lol. I do miss it. I do miss being able to push my sunglasses up on my head or run my fingers through my hair. I miss it falling onto my shoulders.

I could have this, but I prefer to wear my hair curly rather than straighten it. Plus, the HUMIDITY here in Houston is not going to allow us to make it. 🙂

… here’s to loving who you are and embracing your uniquely designed beauty!!!!

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