thirteen weeks

I’m really enjoying these weekly chalkboards… this is my favorite one by far and I can’t wait to see what the rest of the boards look like at the end of the pregnancy.20140729-020152-7312313.jpg

How are we feeling??!?!?!
So. Much. Better. My goodness, I’ve been feeling good and I’m loving it so much! I’ve heard that the second trimester is the most amazing trimester, and even though I’m only a week in – they’re right! A couple of mamas even said that they sometimes forget they’re pregnant they felt so good….. I didn’t understand that initially but I can totally see how it happens. Aside from being winded after walking up a few flights of stairs and enjoying epic naps, I feel very much like my pre-pregnancy self!

What’s going on with the bump?!?!
Making itself known, for sure! Lol. And, I love that with all of my being! If I was trying to hide it, it would be pretty difficult! I’m curious about how large I’ll get! These pictures are a 5 week difference – the picture on the left @ 8w, the picture on the right @ 13 weeks!

So, how are you feeling?!
Forever grateful and now pretty excited. I’m finally getting into planning mode; I’m ready to get the shower planning going (even though it’s probably months away) and nursery planning going. I’m excited about putting my ideas and imagination to work so that I can create some beautiful things for the babes.

The first trimester was a little rough because I wasn’t feeling well at all but also because I was so freaked out about something going wrong. I was so afraid of losing them, of something going wrong. I was almost waiting for the other shoe to drop. But!! We’ve made it to the second trimester….. we are all healthy. The babies are super active – well one of them is incredibly active, the other is pretty chill. I’m excited to find their gender to see who is who, then I can’t wait to meet them in person so I can look at them in their face and say “It was YOU kicking your sister/brother and moving all over the place so the doctor had to earn her check that day to find your heart beat…” and “…. It was YOU being kicked and punched and having to endure the party going on in the other sac. Hope you’re used to it… The only difference is that at home, there’s more space to move around.” LMBO!

Anything else?
Ehhhhhh……  also getting into the shopping mood. I’m having a buuuuuu-laaaaaaaaaast! I’m loving finding specifically dresses and skirts that style my growing little belly so nicely. I’m a bit concerned about buy shoes because of swelling feet & this supposed increase in shoe size, but other than that….. I’m just glad I’m so much more into the pregnancy and planning for the babes.

From mommy….
I swear I can feel you moving about every couple of days even though “it can’t happen” for another couple of weeks when carrying multiples. I looooove watching you move about. I’m guessing you’re playing, flexing your little arms and legs getting used to your little sacs! lol. I think it’s so funny how you guys will “interact” with each other even though you’re in different sacs. It’s so sweet. I’m sure you’re getting used to sharing space and having a partner with you constantly. I look forward to watching your friendship grow as you explore and learn together!
– mommy

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12 weeks!!

20140721-192939-70179171.jpgWhen first found found out I was pregnant, imagining and dreaming of what I would “be” like at every stage of the pregnancy was something that happened quite a bit. Getting out of the first trimester with both of my babes healthy and strong was definitely a goal that I felt I would never reach. 13 weeks felt so far away. But, here we are, just days a way from that mark and so far, so good. And, I’m thankful to experience a swelling belly much sooner….. I literally love the roundness and rounding of my tummy!

We made 12 weeks on Thomas’ birthday, and if I were to color a bit more in the lines it would have been the day we announced we were expecting. lol.

How are we feeling??!?!?!
Better!!! Literally every day is better and I’m so grateful for that! I’m not as worn out as I used to be and I actually woke up twice before 9a on my own. THAT is victory, my friends! I’m definitely eating a  lot more. Late night snacks at midnight at even in the 2a hour (yup) are becoming the norm, as are hunger pangs right after I finish eating and declaring myself  “full”! lol.

What’s going on with the bump?!?!
It’s growing…. OMG. And, I love every bit of it. What makes it even more fun is that other people can see the week by week progress so that makes me feel a lot less delusional about the fact that I “have a bump”! lol. Shopping has become quite interesting as I try so hard to wear “regular” clothes and find dresses that can kindly stretch around my bump, but that’s proving to be very difficult. I’m starting to step into reality and bought a few pieces at Motherhood maternity that I’m really, really excited about wearing. I reasoned with myself that it’s a lot smarter to buy clothes that would grow with me and wouldn’t look like I was trying way to hard. lol

So, how are you feeling?!
Grateful.
I’m so thankful as my babies and sweet babes grow. So thankful that I get to see my babies at every appointment. I laugh that these appointments have nothing to do with me other than my weight (which I’m praying has increased more than a little bit) and blood pressure. My Dr. is so patient and takes her time with us, that she allows us to watch the babies move and roll around in their sacs, I’m grateful that she doesn’t rush through our ultrasound or questions! I’m also grateful for the opportunity to see the babies at every appointment. I’m realizing that most mamas only get a few ultrasounds throughout their pregnancy and I’m glad that we get to see our sweet kiddos every month! A perk of being high risk! lol.

Anything else?
Way back, I posted a poem about how it felt to be infertile as you painfully watch all of your friends and family become moms and as they painfully watch you struggle. To be on the inside of the Chateau now, mingling and exchanging experiences, belly rubs, and joys with other mamas has been the most amazing experience. Now that I’m on the inside, watching as other mamas and mamas to be struggle particularly due to losing their babies is so very difficult especially after coming & going the way I have over the past months. It’s hard to find your place again. I’ve learned that motherhood wells up entirely different kinds of fears that I believe nothing else could, one of those fears would be losing your child. My heart goes out to these mamas who have lost their babies….. 4 mamas in the past couple of months. It’s heartbreaking and difficult but knowing that God redeems us, repairs our hearts, and has a plan for our lives which surpasses anything we could ever dream is the ultimate comfort.

From mommy….
There’s a list of things I ‘can’t wait’ for…. a list of things I want to see and experience… a never ending sea of questions I have about you. I try not to rush through the days to get to the ‘next’ thing, but work hard to enjoy every moment. Knowing that while each passing day brings me closer to having you in my arms, it’s a day that you need to grow strong and develop well. I won’t rush you, take your time. I’ll be right here waiting for you… (This is one of my absolute favorite songs in the entire world… lol)
– mommy

Post Jam: Stay With Me by Sam Smith

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vacation!!!

alainabridgeThis past week, we were in full fledge vacation mode….. limited internet access helped a ton with winding down the summer and enjoying time with family/friends!!

It was so nice to have one last summer vacation experience as a duo, before we become an instantaneous party of four.

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This is my eleven week belly….. the belly that grows as much week by week as it does as the day goes on (lol)…. the belly that is housing two of my greatest creations, my greatest blessings, my greatest gifts, and the cause of the greatest thanks. The babies that have rocked my whole world, caused me to vomit in public places, and has brought us so much joy and love already.

Being pregnant has opened my eyes to a lot of thoughts I’ve had that truly weren’t fair and were quite judgmental. Thoughts that were so foolish and inconsiderate.
For instance, the size of early bellies.
They’re small. And, at times I’d see mamas to be posing with these super small bellies and think, “Cute, but there’s barely anything there.”
Well, I will say that I do appreciate opportunities that open my eyes.
I recognize that my belly is  small comparatively speaking and for some it may not seem like a big deal.
But, it is. It’s huge for a couple of reasons.
First, I’m bigger than I’ve ever been before and this body is changing fast. And, two, there’s life inside of this smallish growing belly.
So, to us… while there’s “barely anything there”, its the most amazing “barely anything” we’ve ever experienced.
Perspective and a willingness to understand makes a world of a difference.

bellySeven days in the Caribbean was phenomenal and so relaxing. I followed Dr.’s orders and limited my time in the sun, enjoyed the surf, water, and beach in spurts, lounged in the shade drinking lots of water and icees building relationships and enjoying friends.

People watching is one of my favorite favorite things to do….
I found myself watching young families at the beach and airports wondering and laughing with Thomas about what we’ll look like a year from now, traveling with two little babes. lol. Both of us talking about what we don’t get about kids and the nuances of traveling with kids… lol.
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Sidebar: Thomas is a major fan of me bearing the belly! He even proudly pointed out the fact that my linea nigra (the dark line down the abdomen) is making an appearance. lol.
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And, this guy.
sleepHis birthday is today.
Every year I look back on who is has become and am grateful for the growth, the craziness I put him through and how he so graciously and patiently deals with my spontaneous decisions and chasing my heart all over the place, and how him he is. And, how being exactly who he is has made me better, has benefited our relationship, our business, and our life together.

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Even though I always get on him for how lucky he is for having a summer birthday that isn’t smushed between anything, he really deserves an amazing day all his own, not impacted or eclipsed by anything else.

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Happy birthday, man!

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