National Infertility Week!

Today is the last day of #nationalinfertilityawarenessweek and I’ve been absolutely quiet. Life is amazing and busy and I hadn’t stopped long enough to write about this incredible diagnosis. Infertility is hard. It’s kind of a thief. It can easily steal dreams, destroy hope, paralyze happiness, and ruin marriages. It breaks your heart. It shakes your value and places doubt in your heart about who you are and where you fit. It’s lonely and it’s isolating. It’s the enemy to 1 in 8 families. It’s the line the separates us (the broken) from them (the mamas & daddies). It’s the darkness that covers you month after month & the siphon that drains your bank account from medications, procedures, dr appts, and hospital stays.
But, y’all. 

It’s the place I found Jesus. It’s the place I learned to feel and lean in. Where I had to be strong in spite of how very weak and fragile I was. It was where I learned to connect and build with women who were also hurting. Where online communities of women who struggled just got it, welcomed me, stood with me, and prayed for me. It was a hard place. May one day prove to be hard again, but if it weren’t for infertility I wouldn’t have experienced FOR MYSELF a mighty miracle from the Lord. One that I got to personally feel and live out versus watching another person enjoy. I KNOW that the Lord blesses abundantly.

I KNOW he gives us the desires of our hearts.

I KNOW that the Lord is a healer and a way maker. 

I KNOW that he sees me. That he holds me together, that he comforts me, hides and protects me. That he is a deliverer and healer. 

I know it’s not always easy hearing stories like this when you are in the valley. I know that one day it gives hope but on another (the day your cycle comes or you get a negative pregnancy test) that is angers and frustrates. But, know that the Lord’s plan and timing is best. That what he has for you will be specifically planned just for you. That he has a plan for your life full of good gifts. 

The wait is hard. But, wait well. Wait with anticipation, standing on your tip toes with your arms stretched out believing that you will see the goodness of the Lord & receive every good thing he has promised you. 

While you wait, lean into the Lord and pour yourself out for others. When you don’t feel like it. When you’re tired and angry. It seems impossible but you can and will keep going. YOU, who you were before all of the acronyms and dr appts and needle pricks, you’re still under there. Pieces of you have changed. 

You’ve become a bit different but you aren’t lost. You don’t have to lose yourself, your relationships, your marriage, joy, or peace. Be strong. Find a community, pour into & develop your passions. And, wait patiently on the Lord. He will renew your strength, wipe your tears, bottle up your tears, give you a safe place to hide, & love you to wholeness. 

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it’s been a year 

Whoa. Wait. 

I just realized I didn’t update you guys on March……… it was a spectacular month! Sad & hard for me in one way that alllllmost took the wind out of my ‘Oh shi*t did this just happen’ sails! 

For the past two years I have been a Plexus ambassador. I have grown personally so stinking much it’s unreal (just because life & also because this business is amazing) & my passion for helping others become healthier and enjoy lives well by way of financial freedom and enjoying wellness is unshakable. I have an amazing team of women (for now!!) who also have the same passions and are pursuing lives of freedom for themselves. Because of those amazing people, our love for this company & others, & my hard work —– I just got one step closer to creating an even more fulfilling, adventure & experience filled life. I ranked Senior Gold. Which is huge. And, exciting. And, comes with a $23k salary which is nice when you consider I work from my phone and have a blast with my team. I totally cried when my check landed in bank account &  bought my babies 2 new pairs of shoes, a dress, and an outfit. Because I could. It was amazing. Single mamas, it’s totally possible to provide for a children WELL (incredibly well), we can have stress free, more enjoyable dispositions because our minds aren’t bogged down with finances and ‘how am I going to make this work…’ type thoughts. It can be done, because I’m doing it. My heart is for YOU, for mamas like me, who want better and more without having to work 3-4 jobs, have a few minutes for their kids, and still struggle. That’s not living. 

*** hops off soapbox ***

So it’s April and it’s been a whole entire long, and hard yet exciting, fun, and successful year since my divorce. It’s been good. Not always ideal, all things didn’t happen the way I wanted them to, but I’ve enjoyed the ride. 

For full disclosure, I’d never lived alone or been 100% responsible for paying bills and that sort of thing…………… so, I’m adulting on a whole new level. I’ve done pretty stinking well, if I do say so myself. I’m overdue for an oil change and my inspection sticker is out but my bills are paid (thanks, Plexus) and my kids are healthy and happy. So that’s all that matters. Right? So I have two years worth of these super cute pictures that I only have in Chatbooks…… but I think I’m going to print at least one a month (maybe??) on canvas and make a photo wall for their room. I mean…….. look at them? Canvas is necessary. Hold me to it, k?

It’s been a year. A new foundation has been laid. New dreams dreamt. New goals set.  

Moving forward full of hope, great expectations, and overwhelming peace and joy. 

Happy Resurrection Day! 

Oh death where is your sting? Hurt, heartache, defeat, disappointment, failure……. you don’t get to win. I have a hope bigger than you, an incredible future in spite of you. Forgiveness, joy, peace, love, grace, reign here. Why? Because my hope is in my risen savior. The healer of my broken heart, mender of my wounds, my comforter, my protector, my redeemer, my provider, the one who withholds no good thing & promises that all things work together for my good. Life truly is hard. Life hurts. Circumstances sting. People turn against us. However, this life and what it brings doesn’t dictate my joy or peace. 

I am an overcomer. 

I am an incredible. 

I am a child of the King.

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Hi, hello!!

You guys!! Hello!
I feel like I have to reintroduce myself it’s been so long since I’ve written in this space I love so much. I’m thankful that you guys are still reading, you’re still saying “Hello!” when you see me and/or the girls out and about! Your support and prayers mean the whole entire world to me!

2017 has been pretty good to me so far…. I have a lot to share with you…. plenty of my heart to pour out, but we have a bit of catching up to do first! lol.

My last post was in November, and since then….

#themayestwinsturnedtwo

birthdaygirls1 birthdaygirls2(Yes.. these are photos from my Cannon. That are still in my Cannon. #momlife) birthdaygirls3 birthdaygirls4 birthdaygirls5These girls are the highlight of my life!

These little people are straight up hilarious. They have each other’s backs in ways that surprise me on a regular! One is a prankster like I’ve never seen before. They are obsessed with Frozen, playing outside, and ice cream! They love bows and dresses… they will immediately go to the mirror after I finish combing their hair and dressing them to see how they look! Our words are coming faster and faster, they communicate pretty well although I will likely get them started with Early Childhood Intervention soon because they should be talking more than they are – mainly putting words together to make phrases! But, aside from that… they are amazing! They love school, love taking their Plexus Family Chewable vitamins, and have the healthiest appetites!

After the girls turned 2 in December, I made 34 in January!birthday
So far this year has been one of growth and isn’t that what we all want? My prayer has been for abundance. I believe that everything I’ve been praying for, both the needs and the wants, will be supplied in abundance! ….and, I absolutely see the Lord bringing things together. While some of that coming together doesn’t feel very good, I know that all he’s working out within me will prepare me for the good that he promised he wouldn’t withhold!

February came and went pretty quickly, and the girls and I had our GALentine’s Day celebration!vday1vday2 I love the idea and comfort of traditions, so I began a little Date Night with the girls Valentine’s Day Eve! We went to our favorite (kid friendly) restaurant (Chiptole!) and went for cupcakes at Small Cakes! My sister in law and her two girls were there, too, so it was a legit girls night! They had so. much. fun!!We all did, but I especially love how much the girls laughed, ate, and played.

edgeYes! I’m still in love with Plexus! Still sharing, still taking, still feeling amazing because of these products! I literally don’t know what I did without them. Oh yea. exhaustion, sugar cravings, bloating, big baby belly, irregularly. In addition to all of that, the personal growth in unreal. Painful at times, but so good! Also, building & strengthening authentic relationships with some of the most amazing women! The Lord blessed me so good with this gig!

mayestrioOther than that……. We’re just hanging out and having a great time together! The girls are so incredibly funny, sweet, naughty, protective, supportive, kind, sneaky, and pure joy!!! The word ‘naughty’ seems so hoity toity, but not only do I not know how to spell hoity toity but I have no other way to describe the girls (one in particular) just gets into every everything! So inquisitive, so bright, so techy, and loves to figure out how things work! whew…. duoA picture of two of the best things I’ve ever done.
As close to perfection as it gets.

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