… h & c • 23 wks


23 weeks… This seems so unreal.

My girls will be here in a few very short weeks.
Because we’re expecting twins, our goal week is 35 weeks. So, we have literally 12 weeks to go before the girls make their little debuts.

Twelve weeks isn’t very long but because there have been a few complications and the obvious move from full mobility to limited bed rest and possibly soon full bed rest, each day is incredibly important.

Every week, until our girls arrive, I will be posting what week they’re on & the development that happening with them. I’m asking that you pray for our girls’ health & that they are developing as they should and that they stay put for as long as possible. Although we know that medicine is constantly advancing & they could survive with some serious medical intervention at 24 weeks (a week away), we also know that it is best for them to remain in utero.

This week……
Size: mango
We have some major brain development going on! Their little cerebrums (where intellect, motor control, & memory are located) are developing folds & other regions of the brain are also developing. Their lungs are still maturing & hearing is also improving! & they’re moving quite a bit!

The girls have been active for a while and our prayer is that continue to play, stretch, and try to find comfortable positioning the rest of their stay!

I’m believing God for their overall health…… I know you’re trusting Him, too!

Will you pray with us weekly/daily for our babes??
…. And, our birth family, as well?? While this is such an amazing, amazing time for us, it’s very difficult for our birth family. We are looking forward to two very sweet, long awaited girls while they’ll experience a great loss. No matter how much we’re helping each other, it doesn’t make that truth any easier to accept or less painful. Thank you!

…. here’s to you – our support, our friends, our readers, and family. You’ve been more than we could ever ask for!


… blown away


I don’t have quite the words…….

There are times when your dreams and plans aren’t quite good enough. When we limit or don’t even consider any other options outside the ones that are laid out in front of us. Sometimes, our outside the box thoughts still aren’t creative enough.

There are times we pray and pray, but don’t believe God is hearing you. There are times we are in the wait so long that we talk ourselves out of things and into believing we don’t really want what we so desperately desire.

Until that moment when God’s perfect timing gives you everything you have ever wanted His way.

His plans are always bigger and better. His timing is perfect.

I have always wanted multiples – by birth or adoption.
But, didn’t think much of it.

But, at 20 weeks. Here are our girls. They’ve played a strange version hide & seek for quite a while but I am so thankful. I still haven’t fully wrapped my mind around it. Lol. It’s interesting.


… baby ache


My girl is 18 weeks and is projected to be a 10 pounder by the end of it all. And, she’s healthy.
It’s so funny because my niece was projected to be the same size but is a tiny as she wants to be now! ….. She’s finally starting to catch up to other kids her age at 4!!! Lol.
I love this little munch!!!

20131202-222846.jpg •••• this is a 2 yr old picture! ••••

As the weeks go by, I’m more and more in love with my girl. As we began this journey, I read about adoptive mamas feeling an ache for their babies as they wait……..

And, I believe I feel that now.
I’m completely taken and overwhelmed. Always near tears, thankfully for good reasons now versus the many years and months I cried continuously due to inability to expand our family despite all of our efforts!

My heart and mind is just heavy with thoughts of my girl.
I’m so grateful for even being at this point. I had no idea when or if I’d ever be here, having an actual baby on the way….. I had no idea how we would ever get here. I’m in such awe and am so incredibly humbled at the fact that our birth mom chose us, that God had this girl at this perfect time, in His plan for us.

It’s so incredibly special.

And, my heart is so full at the thought of her being in our arms forever.

This God we serve does incredibly more than we could ever ask or think…. Prayers answered, desires fulfilled. Things I had no idea I wanted have completely swelled my heart. Adoption has done well by us!

I will be forever grateful for this experience. I do not feel worthy.

We’re halfway there.

I’m waiting for you, Holland.
Mama loves you.