fantastic, feisty, & five months fab!

Processed with VSCOcam with g3 preset“Hey, sister!! We’re 5 mths!!”

These last five months have been so joyous in some ways and very difficult in others. Lots of growing and choosing. Lots of struggling and rejoicing. They are for sure worth celebrating regardless of what else is going on in our world. Worth fawning over. Worth working our hardest for.

They are doing some pretty exciting things these days…… I kinda chatted over here about what they are doing but since then, they’ve been doing better with holding their bottles and it almost seems as if they’re ready to get moving! Their little bodies will get all excited and their legs and arms will move but it’s so funny because they aren’t going anywhere!

I’ve been allowing them to taste little foods here and there. I’m not quite ready to give them real food yet, but I want to begin shaping their little palates. They’ve tasted cucumber, plum, and carrots. Logan seems to really enjoy new foods – she’ll hold your hand/food to her mouth and scream cry if you take it away. Rhyann….. she’s not too thrilled. Introducing foods to them will be interesting – especially if this pattern carries on. 5mthsa

…. and, they’ve begun crying tears. Real Deal tears.
MY GOSH…. I never thought tears would make my heart break. Watching these girls grow is my greatest joy….. They cause my heart to soar.

Logan is still the happiness baby on the planet. She’s laughing, squealing, and making the cutest faces more and more. She literally wakes up with the happiest of faces. And, the girl loves music and will bounce and babble along with it!
Rhyann is becoming such a ham. Laughing more without so much work and babbling tons and tons. She has made the strangest, most hilarious sounds ever!! She’s hilarious. And, I love her personality.

Both of them are the best babies…. easy. Quiet for the most part and they’re easy to take anywhere and everywhere.
They’re also the best errand running buddies. They just ride and hang out…. they’re so easy.
IMG_7255The last five months have been full of nurturing and stillness for most of the time…..
the next five will be so very different.

I can’t wait to do the teaching and chasing, the hand holding, and just watching them become more independent.
They’ll become more themselves, more of me, more of their dad.
They’ll do more watching, more imitating.

And, I cannot freaking wait.

Month 5… bring it.


like a GIRL!

It’s blurry but I love it!
…. And, that size 2 skirt! I couldn’t get into a size 2 skirt two weeks ago!!
Literally cried and promptly returned the skirt & refused to go up a size.
Thank you, PLEXUS!! 

Notice a sweet little commonality with hashtags & posts today?

They’re about WOMEN!


Positive, uplifting, encouraging, & inspirational words and pictures about women to women by women!

These posts are a great breathe of fresh hair from the usual women on women verbal barrage of meanness that brings us all down. That negativity that’s often lives well among women tears a part relationships, rips confidences to shreds, and gives other women permission to do the same.

As women, the way we treat each another woman tells others that it’s okay to treat them in the same manner believe it or not. Genuinely building up & supporting another woman tells the world that not only is she worth love and support but that you, too, are worthy of friendship and a support. There’s something about witnessing someone support another that inspires us to support them and others, true? We like people who like people and who are liked, am I right? It’s a domino effect that pays forward what we believe we are worthy and deserving, yea?

I’m encouraged by women who don’t let their insecurities blind them to their own greatness and keep them opportunities that are awaiting them. I’m thankful to have women in my life who love supporting other women and who show/teach the many different ways to stand up for ourselves without tearing another person down. It’s possible. We can do it! We just have to value ourselves and other people, too.

Being a woman isn’t about tearing people down. It isn’t about weakness or cattiness, or unhealthy competition and meanness. We have so much power, we can be so inspirational, strong and gentle.
We can even be kind even if we don’t like the circumstances or the person.
And, that’s NOT being fake, it’s being mature.
It’s being a woman.

I love being a girl. I love being a woman. I love that we are breaking barriers, achieving what used to be impossible all while looking fabulous and letting other girls and women that they can do it, too.

A joy and pride swell my heart when I hear of the accomplishments of other women. We are capable and we’re getting the attention of those who believed that we weren’t. like a girl

I love that doing something ‘like a girl’ means doing it with courage, strength, commitment, passion, and grace.
I love that we are a mix of beautiful contradictions…..
Strong & feminine.
Emotional & logical.
Strong business minded & gently nurturing.

Doing it like a girl is a compliment.
And, we have no problem letting you know it.
Like a boss.
Because we are bosses.
and, girls.


double the love

babiesinheartThis is the girls’ first Valentine’s Day and I am over the moon about celebrating with them. Everything is so much more exciting with babies … double that excitement with twins! We had this mini photoshoot and while I’m very proud of the pictures I took, the garland I made, and how everything came together, I also see looooots of room for improvement.
And, the way my hobbies are set up – I’m going to get a lot of practice!

… and, don’t judge the paci’s. (smile.)

moving on…

During our struggles with infertility, what made me the saddest was the idea that I would never be able to experience all of the things I’d envisioned doing with my kids and family, that I wouldn’t be able share the things that I love with them and vice versa…. that I wouldn’t be able to experience the joy that children bring to your home. So, now that these sweethearts have graced my life, I want to celebrate them and play and share and experience and teach and learn and grow with them as much as possible.

One of the things I want to teach them most is how to love like Christ loves us. I mean, He’s going to teach them…. but I just wanna play TA, and be the example. Kinda like a class pet. I want to be one of the ones called on to show and lead and to help.vday1

A friend’s Insta post caused me to really think about how our culture loves and responds to certain behaviors….. very “He did this so i’m not cooking… or doing that” and “I’m not going home because she’s nagging.”  So, I got to thinking about how our behaviors are so rooted in fear and pride that we can’t love like Jesus. Jesus could love the Pharisees and Judas (of all people) because his behavior was based on their crowd approval or their day to day choices. Jesus treated people the way he did because of His love for God and seeking his approval only. Christ teaches us to serve as unto God…. not until we get what we want, not when we feel like it, it, and not quitting if someone does something we don’t like or when our feelings get hurt. Jesus knew that people are just people. We aren’t perfect. We make stupid mistakes, we make emotional decisions, we get tired, we yell, we get frustrated and we SIN. We do some very opposite of awesome things and say some very opposite of loving things because we are fallible. But, not unlovable. Not unworthy of a second or millionth chance. In desperate need grace and mercy.

This kind of love is completely countercultural and down right difficult at times. It requires humility and a heart for God. It requires constant prayer and sacrifice of ego. This kind of love is invaluable. It can’t be measured. And, it teaches others to love in a way that lasts.

*** What it isn’t is an invitation to be a doormat… it takes a mighty strength to love another this way, a strength that won’t allow you to be treated any kind of way, and a strength that will let you communicate that in the best way. lol. get me?
(I’m learning, too!! Boundaries aren’t always easy to establish!)
Jesus didn’t play. You don’t have to either. lol***vday2

Even if relationships end or change, even if you have to walk away from a toxic situation….. loving like this will never be a waste. It leaves the door open for a reconciliation of friendship and relationship (even if it’s on a different level). Loving like this will heal and strengthen. It’s accepting when you fail and encouraging when you’re vulnerable. It’s a love that doesn’t humiliate or tear down. A love that softens hard conversations and is open and inviting. It’s courageous.

This is love.
The kind of love I’m learning and becoming excellent at. A love I am constantly praying for. The kind that is the standard for my behavior, it shows me where I’m failing miserably at. Because I’m a person. It’s the love that forgives me and gives me grace. That gives me twelve hundred more tries. The one that comforts me in my brokenness and celebrates in my success.
This love is Jesus.