abide

Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit by itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in me. 
I am the vine; you are the branches. Whoever abides in me and I in him, he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from me you can do nothing. 
If anyone does not abide in me he is thrown away like a branch and withers; and the branches are gathered, thrown into the fire, and burned. 
If you abide in me, and my words abide in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you. 
By this my Father is glorified, that you bear much fruit and so prove to be my disciples. 
As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Abide in my love.
John 15:4-9
how sweet is this promise?
Melt ya agitation, soften your heart, make you smile sweet.
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So, we all know that the life has been kinda rough for a while…….  between the infertility, adoption, the birth of my sweet precious and pretty babes to my divorce… life has pretty much handed it to me. And, for whatever reason the Lord has so sweetly allowed me to walk through all of that graciously (per y’all. lol) and I definitely recognize how strong and put together I am. It’s all the Lord. There is no way I could maintain the level of put togetherness, calm, peace, joy, the coveted amount of happy that quietly seeped into my world…. every thing you see is the grace of God. My kids happy, healthy, and clean – the Lord. My hair combed – Jesus. My amazing family – Christ’s hands and feet. The fact that I haven’t lost my mind & am as resilient as I am……… Jeeeeeeeesus. All of everything that has been is straight up because Jesus loves me and keeps his promises.

But, things are still hard, right? So we question and we wonder and become frustrated because this and that is not happening… and without these things I can’t take care of whatever is on the list that day..or has been on the list because it still isn’t taken care. So, we mull and we pray and we cry (well, I do) and work ourselves up instead of choosing to just abide and rest.

17 months
The smile: Jesus’ love
The t-shirt: Be Still Clothing
The kids: God’s grace

So, I’m working to piece life together again and it’s demanding. And, I feel whittled down and incapable of carrying this insane weight another step. The weight of the loneliness of single parenting. The weight of single parenting. The weight of being the head of a household (because who really wants to do that? lol. And, it’s something I absolutely believe is not a woman’s place….  so it’s heavy.). The weight of providing, the weight of being everything to two little gorgeous people who need so much when I don’t feel like I have enough or am enough.

Honestly, tired of the constant conflict of the exhaustion/embarrassment/frustration with the downturn, yet so grateful/humbled/expectant because all of the goodness of what is. 

I’m not one to believe that the Lord puts you through tests until you learn your lesson as pass it. I’m more of the belief that yes, while our choices can keep us on a hamster wheel, it’s the Lord’s sovereignty that brings us to certain places in life. And, unfortunately that can sometimes bring us to difficult times, but it’s in abiding and obedience that we’re able to endure the process of becoming more like him. Annnnd, then there are the times (like in John 9) when hard things happen just so that people can see exactly what the Lord is capable of doing. 

The funny thing is the word abide has two meanings, one specifically communicating hardship… one meaning means to accept and act in accordance with (read: obey, observe, follow) and the other means to unable to tolerate (read: to take, endure, to withstand)….. In different translations in the Bible, abide is replaced with remain, which means to stay. to persist. to last. to endure. to exist. to keep.
I’m no theologian but they all sound about right.june 2016the morning after Plexus Convention in Las Vegas. In ya face. 🙂 

Throughout the Bible, the Lord commands us to abide, rest, trust, hope, believe, endure.
Because he knows he’ll ask us to endure hard things, he wants to remain.
He wants us to persist. to last. to stay connected to him.

Why?
So that we glorify him.
So that we bear fruit.
So that we prove to be his followers.

And, that’s enough.
But, because our Lord is so good and kind towards us, when we obey and abide. When we tough it out and endure, he gives us good gifts. The big stuff we ask for. The little stuff we think we can handle.
The things our hearts long for.

When we allow the Lord to reign and rule.
When we allow ourselves to continue to be created into who the Lord wants us to be.
When we fight the feelings and believe the truth.
When we rest in his arms and allow his peace to cover us.

We will bear his fruit. 
We will glorify our God.
Our lives will point to our Savior. 

And, that is what this is all about.

Not sure about the fruit the Lord will produce in my life…
I know that there are some great big things that I’ve laid at the Lord’s feet
and I know how impossible it is without the Lord.
Yet, I trust his plan and his timing.

And, I want you to, too.
No matter how hard or difficult things are, so much joy is coming.
So much joy is here right now!
Life is hard, but it doesn’t suck everyday.
Learn to lean into the Lord when it’s hard & enjoy when it’s good all  while abiding joyfully on both days. 

On the days you need to cry, because you’re a human and not a robot, do it. Get it all out.
Listen to sweet truth like this, sing off key if you can’t find the notes like I do,
and lay your heart all his feet. 

When you’re done, wipe your tears, thank the Lord for loving you and get on with your day…
abiding in his love. 
abiding in his word.
trusting our sweet Lord.

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Comments

  1. This was beautiful! What a precious work the Lord is doing in you as you faithfully walk with him through this hard season! You are an inspiration and encouragement to me!

  2. GORGEOUS words and message. Thank you for this today!!!

  3. Jessica says:

    I needed to here this. Thank you!

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