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My goodness…… My goodness. My goodness.

As much of a crying, stressed, nervous wreck as I am…….. These girls are my everything. I am in awe of them. They make me smile, lift my spirits, and completely fill me with a hope I hardly understand. I can’t stop staring at them.

I love kissing their cheeks and bellies…. Holding their hands and rubbing their little feet. They have the sweetest toes in life.
And, their breath. I love feeling their backs rise and fall… I love feeling their breathe on my chest or neck…. I love just watching them breathe. And, hearing them hiccup. And, sneeze. One of them coughed in my face and I didn’t even care. lol.
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I love that they have constant bed head even after I brush it. I know they’re going to have the curliest hair ever. And, I’m looking forward to crowing their little heads with all of the bows and headbands that are mounting!

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The sound of their cries stirs me to my core… Tears flowed down my face the first time I heard them cry in the operating room… let me know that they were real, that this life, this dream was really happening, that they were okay.

I love how they kick and flail when they’re aren’t cuddled or swaddled…. I love how they calm when you run their heads, hold their hands, or hold them close. How they seek comfort, familiarity, and security and find it in me. I love how easy they are.

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I still can’t believe they’re mine. That they are the world’s sweetest answers to the most painful of prayers. I’m so thankful. So thankful for them. Thankful that such a hard year is ending and that my “… in with the new” begins with them. These girls, although they came early, came at the perfect time. And, I love them for that….. Something I hope they never understand, but I will be forever grateful for.

I love them because they made me a mama.

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  1. Shanika Henderson says:

    They are beautiful! The obsession will never end. There will always be something new to be obsessed with. It changes as they get older. McKenna is almost 8 and I’m still completely obsessed. I remember my first obsessions were smelling her and watching her breathe while she was asleep. I would just stare at her and smile.

  2. Angela R, Francis says:

    Your words stir me to tears. I continue to say that God is a good God and He still answers prayers!

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