… and, then there were 3

Writing a post announcing that a baby, our baby, was on its way has been a dream of mine for almost ten months since we decided to adopt. But, our journey to having a family has been a long three years. I’ve been itching to write it for a couple of weeks now. I’ve really been trying to wait so that other things we have planned to happen will align with the announcement. However, we’re constantly being asked about our process and I hate to withhold information that I know so many people have been praying about.happy

So.

Thomas and I are anxiously anticipating the debut of a little one who we faithfully believe is growing healthy and strong for its debut May 7th.

As usual, I’m breaking rules and following my heart in telling the news earlier than you’re “supposed” to, but I believe that those who have prayed for and supported us more than we could have ever imagined, deserve to know.baby m

I know that many of those people keep up with us via this blog. I appreciate the outpouring of love and support I’ve received from my readers, friends, family, and ‘netbuds who have linked arms with us and committed to battling this thing with us. You’ve been so amazing.

Three years ago, I started this blog to chronicle our journey through infertility and to a child. From the very beginning, that first summer Thomas and I began fertility treatments, I told him that if I were to become pregnant, I would want to share the news with you early. I believed that if you were praying for me, encouraging me, and supporting me during the treatments and hardest times that you would definitely be there if something were to happen. I didn’t feel that it was something to hid or protect myself from.

And, I still believe that.alaina at door

So, here we are. Making one of the hugest announcements of our life. An announcement that testifies to God’s goodness and His faithfulness. To answered prayers of strangers, family, and friends. Prayers of a community of women who I know have my back, who have been so helpful, and love me unconditionally. My gosh you have been by my side through so much… To you ladies who prayed that my heart would turn towards adoption – whoa. I cannot thank you enough for praying such a bold prayer (about something I told you I wasn’t interested in! Lol) and I praise God that your prayers were answered. That he knew so much better than me. That God didn’t choose to allow me to wallow in my foolishness. That He didn’t keep me from experiencing such an amazing act of love. This situation alone has taught me that I never need nor want to be in the driver’s seat of my life.alaina

Please, please continue to pray for our family. (We’re gonna have a family, y’all!) We’ve been praying for our baby and our birth mom since we decided to adopt but now, but now….. our prayers are so different. Not about “a” child we’re thinking of but about a real person who’s developing moment by moment, piece by piece. If you can say that about a human. Lol. God already has it’s life mapped out. One of my most fervent prayers is that if we do nothing else right, we lead thr child to Christ. That we show and tell him/her of a relationship with an amazingly faithful Lord and Savior.

I don’t think I’ll ever be able to fully express how good this feels. It’s such a relief to finally see the “end” of such a difficult time… years of such deep heartache. The “end” of feeling as if God’s hand was not on us.full fam

The “end” of such one kind of heart wrenching prayer and the beginning of another kind. Praying for our child and its soul. Its emotional, mental, physical health and stability and the desire to love God with its heart, mind, and soul.

But, now.
I know that God sees me. I know His plans are best. I’m so glad that He took my plans and completely wrecked them.
God has literally given me everything I desired at exactly the right time. The fact that my little one will be born at the end of the school year is miraculous! Educators across the nation understand this – I’ll get to be with my baby all summer. All summer. A summer of loving on him/her, getting to know them, and just plain ol’ staring at the wonder of an amazing God. A God who has taken our grief and given us an amazing blessing. I feel like as if Hannah may have felt this same way.mama fox

It’s beautiful to see so many things falling into place effortlessly. Without struggle or with the feelings as if we have to “make” it work. It’s beautiful to see that God has created an unwavering trust in Him that frees me of worrying about anything no matter how they may appear.horiz hands

I honor my wait. I respect it. I will never, ever forget such difficulty. It drew me to my God. If expanding our family was a piece of cake, for me (please read the emphasis!), I would have missed out on so much. I would have missed God. I wouldn’t willing rest on the potter’s wheel. I wouldn’t understand that I could find such a peace and joy that withstands and overshadows the worst of circumstances in my God. I wouldn’t have a maturity that allows me to see past the now and respond with gentler words that restore and to wait patiently. I wouldn’t know redemption the way that I do. I wouldn’t know or have the husband that I have now. And, THANK GOD, he doesn’t have the wife he had before.

This wait has been good to us and for us. It was painful but it was the best thing that could have ever happened to us.

Our baby is coming, y’all…shoes book band

To those of you who have been so supportive and loving. Who have prayed for us and cried with me and for me. Who have gone through this with me as if you were in my shoes – I can never thank you enough. Ever. A good friend sticks closer than a brother. And, I luckily have three bio sibs and I have good friends. My sisterfriends. You guys are my everything. My Insta-friends – y’all. I’m thankful for social media and the way God puts his people together and forms a community of adoptive mamas who support each other, pray for each other, and are there . It’s amazing how relationships have been formed and how I’ve gotten to know you.

My heart has never been so full and I hope that one day I can look back at this moment in time and realize that my heart wasn’t as full as I thought it was. I pray that God continues to use me, my family, our story, and our children to testify to His goodness and do great works for Him. I pray that my heart and work swells for Christ and His desires and that I never quite feel that “enough” has been done to honor and glorify Him.

… here’s to recognizing and learning that suffering is never to weaken you but to strengthen your faith, your heart, your relationships, and trust.

… and, here’s to my baby. I’ve waited for you. I’ve prayed for you. You have a name. A room. A couple of pairs of shoes. And, a mommy, daddy, family, and friends who can’t wait ‘til you get here, but take your time; don’t rush. You are worth the wait.

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  1. it’s time!!!! praise be to God. thank you for being SUCH A BLESSING to me and the other women i have shared your blog with. God’s timing is perfect. just PERFECT. thank you for sharing your journey; continue to grow into the woman He created you to be, Aliana!!! God bless you guys as you enter this new chapter in your lives. LOOK AT GOD.

    le

  2. LovingMsLilly says:

    This brought me to tears. I am so happy for Gods presence in your life. You will be an amazing mother

  3. Courtney Brown says:

    I could just scream!!!! Totally can’t wait to meet the newest Mayes!!

  4. Hey Alaina,

    I have been praying all the while and keeping up via the blog! Praise be to God and I will continue to pray for your growing baby!! Also, how can I get a wrist band?

    Love you,

    Dee

    • Hey girl!
      Yes! Praise God!!! He is truly been showing me so much! I’m grateful!!!! Thank you for praying for & keep up with us!! You’re so far away now!!! 🙁
      Send me your address & I’ll toss a couple in the mail!

  5. Wow that is amazing. Gives me hope that my husband and I will one day be able to have a little one of our own.
    From,
    Tasha McGinnis Williams

  6. Ashley Odom says:

    OMG!!! So happy for the Mayes!!! God is a good God and HE definitely will give us the desires of our heart in HIS timing. So excited for you both!!

  7. GLORY TO GOD!!!! I am over joyed for you two! Reading this brought tears to my eyes. Congratulations!!!! But GOD! I’m so happy I don’t know what else to say.

  8. Amen.

  9. Beautifully written. Congratulations to you both!

  10. Thanks for blessing us with your story!

  11. ahhh!!! SO SO SO SO THRILLED FOR YALL!!! praising god tonight!!!

  12. Elyse Paley Rouzan says:

    What a wonderful blessing. So happy for you.
    Aunt Leesy and Uncle Reggie

  13. I remember crying with you at the very bottom…so good to know that weeping may endure for a night but joy has come, in His timing! Thank you for deciding to share your story. Your strength and faith have been a blessing to me. I can not wait to welcome baby Mayes into the family! xoxo

  14. Sooooo happy for the two of you. Typing really slow because I’m having a hard time seeing the screen for the tears. Tears of happiness because God is so faithful and His promises are guaranteed. Thank you for being an example of strength through tough times.

  15. Congrats on your match!!!! I pray that the rest of the process flows smoothly for you and your husband.

    Love the pre-adoption photos! They are supercute!

  16. I have quietly followed your story since we lived in St. Louis. what a joy to see this post! congratulations, lady!

  17. Congratulations! I haven’t been following your blog through your whole journey, but being someone who has struggled with infertility for over four and a half years, my heart is over the moon excited for you!! I have been so blessed by the words that you write and I am praising God right now for this beautiful blessing! 🙂 xoxo

  18. Renee Wukks says:

    Such a beautiful post and I am truly happy and excited for you two! It’s amazing what can happen in our lives when we let go and let GOD!!

    • Renee Wills says:

      Please blame the extreme excitement for me spelling my own name wrong lol!!!!

      • I am DYING!!!!!!! I was like “imagine that – two Renee’s posting with similar last names! Uncanny!!! LMBO!! Well, I’ll excuse yours if you excuse mine! Lol

    • Thank you!!!!! Thank you!!! Yes! We try to handle and control too much – just sitting back and allowing God to work can get things done so much quicker w/ less “fixing” to do!

  19. Kassandra says:

    Thank you Jesus!!!! (just imagine me shouting this from the mountain top!) Congratulations to you both and thank you so much for sharing this journey. It really gives those of us in the waiting period hope and a knowledge that Father-God still hear’s and sees us.

  20. So happy and excited for you and Thomas!!!!!!!! Congratulations!

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