if this isn’t love

pl3Y’all, I’m literally blown away that I’m in week 18 of my pregnancy.

I’m halfway to our goal of 36 weeks and I couldn’t be anymore thankful that this experience has been as easy as it’s been. I know that pregnancy isn’t always easy and it isn’t always fun, so I know that I’ve really been blessed to have such a smooth four and a half months. Our little babes are growing so, so well and I’m so happy that they’re also doing so well so far. I can’t believe how BIG they are…. we used to be able to see both of them on the ultrasound machine at the same time; now we can only see one at a time and half of them at that! Watching them makes my entire day! They swallow now (so cute to see!!) and I’m starting to consistently feel a few movements a day now!! And, I can’t say that I don’t poke, shake, and press on my belly hoping to get a little action in response! lol.pl2

Pre-pregnancy, I thought pregnant women were only uncomfortable due to the large belly and the person rolling around inside of it. But, I’ve learned otherwise! lol. So, these days, I’m all about making myself comfortable at all costs, no matter what! I (almost) have no shame!!! So far,  that means I wear flats 6 out of the 7 days of the week, am working on carrying cross body bags and clutches rather than over the shoulder purses I like to pack with anything I “may” need, lol. All of which are huge moves for me. H U G E life changes but definitely worth it.

One of (the many) most un-fun purchases I’ve made so far has been a belly band. T and I set out today to pick one up per doctor’s orders (for the second time… eek!) and I wasn’t too thrilled when the sales woman pulled it out, but was so happy after I tried it on. I mean, it’s a huge surgical white, velcro clad contraption that is not very attractive but feels like heaven. I’m sold.

Last but not least, my favorite comfort piece thus far – Preggo Leggings.
They’re comfortable, soft, fit like a dream.pl1

One issue I have with maternity pants is that the band that fits over your belly gets uncomfortable during the day. As my belly grows throughout the day (we eat a lot, k?) the band would get more and more uncomfortable. I’m constantly fussing with them; I’m constantly pulling them up and would eventually end up folding the band down because it’s just so uncomfortable! I mean, why add to the irritation, yea? Not with the belly band of these leggings! It’s amazing how comfortable they are! The band wasn’t uncomfortable nor did it dig into my skin!

These leggings never have to be adjusted. NEVER. They stay put, but move along with you. I was honestly a bit concerned about wearing leggings while pregnant because in being short and small, I’d have to pull them up or adjust the legs a lot even before pregnant. I thought I’d have to do the same while pregnant – not so! I didn’t touch these leggings ONCE while we were out. That’s huge for me and I’m completely sold. Such a fashionable, easy, and quick piece to toss on and get out of the door in!!

I’m in love.
In love with flats, slings & cluches, belly bands, and super comfortable leggings.
And, with these babies who will one day soon make me a mom.pl4


justice. mercy. humility.

3 words that beautifully mark the lives of the people we tend to flock towards for many reasons, but I believe, foundationally because they are kind, gentle, wise, and compassionate towards everyone they come across.

I have this sweet little reminder on desk…… I’m praying it does what I’ve planned for it to – to convict, remind, and encourage. (I’ll add the picture tomorrow!!)

I can definitely say that these aren’t the characteristics I most often exhibit in the most frustrating moments. Aren’t those moments when it counts the most?

My first, most reflexive response is annoyance and frustration…. An eye roll, maybe a face. But, soon after that is when the compassion seeps in and creates a space for a real apology and a desire to make amends.

I’m better at showing justice, mercy, and love towards my husband than anyone else…. It comes easy with those I’m bent towards and have easier relationships with.

My heart and thoughts are being challenged by no one other than the Holy Spirit to be more merciful and compassionate in the most frustrating moments and towards those who just rub me all kinds of wrong.

“Working” to be more honoring to God, much more gentle, and gracious towards others & myself. Allowing myself to be sifted & created in who God wants me to be by his grace, love, and in His time.

What are you working on these days? Are you transparent about your struggles? Are you gracious with yourself & asking forgiveness & depending on God for the change or much harder on yourself? I tend to he hard on myself so it’s a work (of God) for me to be more patient & gracious towards myself!

We’re in this becoming thing together and I’m looking forward to seeing the growth I’m asking for!


seventeen weeks…

photo 4.PNG-2How are we feeling??!?!?!
Still doing pretty good. I miss my babies so I can’t wait to see them again in a few weeks. Although, I saw them twice last week, it feels like forever! Never in a thousand years would I have thought that I would miss seeing my babies kick, roll, and “play” on an ultrasound machine. I wonder how happy they are or what they’re thinking about, lol.

What’s going on with the bump?!?!
The kids are getting bigger and stronger everyday, and I can definitely tell! There have been a few thumps here and there, a few “sensations”, but am looking forward to more consistent movements. I KNOW! I KNOW! I KNOW! I’ll be wishing the for the day two kiddos weren’t so active and big and strong very soon, but we all know that we, as mamas, take comfort in feeling our babies move about our bellies! So, for now and probably forever more even when I’m woken up or completely uncomfortable, feeling these babies move is and will be a joy.

The bump is growing and can be quite tricky…. I love how small it looks from the front, and how completely different it looks from the side. It can also look much smaller than it’s actual size depending on what I wear. One thing for certain, twin mamas measuring 3-6 weeks ahead of a singleton mama is definitely true!! lol. I do not look like a typical 17w first time mama of one! …. And, I’m completely fine with that!

photo.PNG-2So, how are you feeling?!
Ebbs and flows of pregnancy are real! I’m getting throughly acquainted with the effects of two growing little people housed in your belly. The fun part? To quote my doctor “… {things} will get worse before they get better….” and “… you’ll experience everything sooner and more aggressively than a singleton mom.” Gee, thanks! LOL. And, she was/is (obviously) right. So, I’m enjoying the fun parts of being pregnant and finding remedies, resting, and enduring the not so fun aspects of pregnancy. It’s well worth it, and I’m learning to take precautions and do my best to avoid the drama.

But! I will say that I am enjoying the perks of pregnancy….. It’s funny, sweet, and very kind of strangers to be so accommodating and helpful. I’ve skipped long restroom lines, constantly offered food and water (which I do not turn down), and had a waiter quickly turn a large fan my way after being told I was carrying twins! “Twins? Really? Oh…. I’ll move the fan right away!” LOL. The understanding nods, smiles, and looks of other preggo mamas and strangers are pretty sweet, too!!

photo 3.PNG{Warning: bump is larger than it appears.}
I also love that I was able to get into some of my pre-pregnancy clothes! This “skirt”is actually a BCBG maxi dress I folded at the waist and paired with a Guess by Marciano tank, then belted.
Truth: the top of the maxi, ehhh.. no longer fits (eek!!) but I really wanted to wear the dress. So, wah-la!

Anything else?
There are days I feel wonderful and like I can hang out for hours and be out all day, and other days where I just want to crash and am so uncomfortable I just want to be at home. I’ll get hot flashes or over heat and will literally have to take a break, find some air, some water, and a snack before I feel better. One of my struggles is feeling guilty about having to take it easy, not being able to do so much, or needing a bit of  ”extra” – like a fan and a mask at the nail shop. Inconveniencing others is never something I want to do. BUT, I believe that a part of being pregnant and needing to protect yourself and care for yourself is nature’s way of preparing you to care for your child. There are certain things you need, your body requires and cannot handle and the only person who can advocate for you and your baby/babies is you. And, your spouse or significant other, but mainly you. Getting over that hump has been easier said that done, but easier at some points than others. The more comfortable I am with knowing what I need, when I need it helps a lot, too!

From mommy….
I think I squished one of you guys earlier today  - I’m really sorry…..
- mommy