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How are we feeling??!?!?!
Definitely feeling like I’m 30 weeks! lol…. Excited about my weight gain, excited about getting more prep done for the girls, and having the best dreams about the day and first few moments they arrive!!!

The fact that these girls will be here in a matter of weeks, more than likely by the end of the year, is literally thrilling and more exciting than anything I’ve ever looked forward to. I’m especially stoked about the first few weeks/couple of months when your only goals are to teach them to depend on you….. I mean, all that means is cuddling you all day and feeding you when you’re hungry. I may be sleep deprived and hurting but to be able to just sit and cuddle “all day”, to watch them sleep, and watch them grow and do new things is perfect enough for me!

What’s going on with the bump?!?!
The bump is doing just fine! The girls are weighing in at 3.6 lbs. and 3.1 lbs. so we are all very pleased with their growth. Hoping my 3.1 lb-er slows her little self down so she can keep her weight on! Of the two, she weighs the least and has the high heart rate and it’s all because she’s so stinking active!! (And, all of that is determined by her mama, not the doctors! lol. But, when you compare her to her very relaxed sister who is almost hitting 4 lbs with a lower heart rate…. I think it’s obvious what’s going on. And, I want her to chill so she can have a higher birth weight. lol.30w
Contrary to what I thought, there is plenty of room for them to move and flip because that’s exactly what they have done. Baby A was vertex 2 weeks ago, now she’s breech. Baby B was breech, now she’s vertex. So, if Baby A chooses to stay put and not flip one more time – I’ll be having a definite c-section. How do I feel about that? Well, once I found out we were expecting twins, even though I was still very serious about a natural water birth (seriously.), I chose to be very open to the method of my girls’ delivery. What I want is a lot less important than what’s best for the girls. So, if that means a c-section…. a c-section it will be!!!!


So, how are you feeling?!
Greeeaaattttt!!! These kicks to my cervix aren’t comfy at all and the girls movements can be uncomfortable, but aside from the physical……. I’m just grateful. Excited. Y’all……….. I’m having TWO baby girls in a few. This time last year I would have never thought that this is how I would be ending the year. EVER. It literally makes me cry. I’m simply praying that we continue to have an eventless pregnancy and safely make it to 37 weeks. I’m praying that my girls won’t have to spend any time at all in the NICU and that they are as healthy as they can possibly be. And, that they latch on well. And, I produce enough milk for everybody. lol.

Anything else?
Absolutely…… A couple of things.
If you people keep gifting my girls such amazingness, you’ll force me to have to try to keep up with you. Which means we’re going to be in a lot more trouble than I thought!!! Like, how adorable are these hangers? How can you expect me to actually USE these beauties? I promised to hang ONE clothing item on them so that is what I will do… then, they’re framed or hung on the wall. Sorry. hangers then….
I told you guys back here that my friend Christin of ChristinShootsPeople asked me to write our story, our journey through infertility, adoption, and now our pregnancy. And, then she went and published it in her magazine. What. Yes. So, naturally. I bought a couple copies and was stoked about getting a complimentary digital copy.
photo 1-5This edition also has a pretty neat write up from my friend Leah about losing your pregnancy weight in a healthy way! She’s absolutely amazing and also has an e-cookbook and does cooking classes and private events. I’m so grateful to be surrounded by amazing women who are serious about their passions and pursue their dreams… then, dream up more dreams to chase! It’s incredibly inspiring.
Anywho, go here and order your copy!!! You won’t be disappointed!!!!!

From mommy….
well, mama packed on 4 lbs in two weeks so…. ***pats self on back***…… and, we’re slowing down to make sure we don’t over do it!! But, I’m grateful that the doctor’s are pleased with your weight gain and the fact that y’all haven’t tried to make your appearance yet! lol. Stay put, we’re not quite ready for you yet! Still can’t wait to meet you though!!!

– mommy

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29 weeks and counting….

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{Loving my earrings from @minmacshop … do yourself a favor and check out her Etsy page here!!}

How are we feeling??!?!?!
We’re doing pretty good! Working hard to eat much more and rest as much as I can. I’m starting to become a bit more uncomfortable and I tire out easily, but we’re doing so well it’s hard to be down about much of anything!

What’s going on with the bump?!?!

I visibly noticed the growth in my belly between Wednesday and Sunday. It was pretty neat…. I feel like my girls have bony elbows and knees because these pokes are so very sharp! They love to move and play…. Baby B moving much more than A which has been their trend over the course of the pregnancy, so I can’t wait to see how their personalities manifest once they’re “out”. lol. One thing for sure is that I am definitely growing and for that I am grateful!!

photo 1.PNG-6So, how are you feeling?!
Anxious…. Patient… 9 more weeks to go. Calm…. Excited… I’m going to be a mama soon. Sore… Tight… I need a good stretching… Buying baby needs for sweet little baby girls is surreal. A year ago I never would have imagined that we would be here. That I would be expecting two baby girls of my very own. I don’t think I can say how grateful I am, how excited we are, how blessed beyond measure and our wildest dreams. God has been so good to us; it’s unreal. I never thought this would happen. I’m humbled at the opportunity to have had such an uneventful pregnancy, humbled to have such a sweet “ending” to our infertility story, for my girls to be big and healthy. It’s  blessing.

Anything else?
uh… yea!!!! I had a pretty sweet week in the mail delivery department this past week….. One box just happened to be filled with the most amazing pretties sent with an insane amount of love.
My friend Mindy of @minmacshop was kind enough to send me not one, not two, but three pairs of her amazing earrings. I’m so simple when it comes to jewelry….. and, I usually wear a pair of pearl earrings or something similar that doesn’t dangle except for when I’m getting all jazzed up and I’ll go for something a lot more fancy! So, these are right up my alley! Not only do I love the jewelry, I love the packaging! She’s such a sweet, sweet soul and along with her earrings come the most encouraging cards that can be posted on your mirror or kept on your desk to remind you of the gospel and truth! ALONG with, super cute hearts that accompany the earrings in the most darling box. Her heart is in every detail of the creativity behind the designs of the earrings and the packaging! She cares, y’all, and there’s nothing I love more than passion and using your love for Christ and your passion to encourage and uplift others! She’s a keeper for sure! Christmas is around the corner, these beautiful earrings would make perfect stocking stuffers or simple gifts to turn someone’s frown upside down!photo 5.PNG
Besides these super cute earrings……. we have NINE MORE WEEKS to go before meeting our sweet girls!!! Can’t wait!!!

From mommy….
Mama’s trying to pack on a few pounds……. so enjoy all the tasties for now!! I hear you guys are growing well and are B I G….. I’m so grateful for that!!! Seriously. I get to see you guys in a couple of more day and I’m praying we’ll get good news just as we have over the past seven months! Stay put, play nicely, and keep baking for me, ok??

– mommy

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a multitude of gifts

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{{The most adorable Christmas ornaments EVER…. complete with personalization and crowns!!! Swoon! … this anonymous gifter knows me well!!}}

Let’s be real.

People don’t have to like us. And, people don’t have to like our kids.

Because, truth be told, we aren’t always all that likeable and every kid isn’t either.

They don’t have to stick through the rough and tough, deal with the less than desirable sides of our personality, our awkward quirks, and the days we aren’t the most fun. We aren’t always all that likeable.

And, honestly, I know I’m not always that super friendly, incredibly kind gal who always has everything together. I can be very “hard” and bound to rules (when I want to be! lol). I’m not always easy to get along with, I’m not the funniest person in the room with the biggest personality. I’m a real and true introvert, creative, blunt, and mouthy kinda chick who has high expectations and expects everyone around me to work as hard and do as much as I do. But, on the flip side, I am also kind, giving, sacrificial, and sensitive. Sadly, the good doesn’t always overshadow the bad, especially when it should. I thank Jesus daily that grace abounds, that He has given me a heart to seek Him & follow the example He has set… to soften, to be more gentle, more patient, and more relaxed. So, I’m working on it.

In the meantime, I’ve had some die hard friends who have stuck by me, who have been there and done that with me…. I have friends who have shown up in incredibly major ways over the past few years, specifically during our adoption and this pregnancy. I’ve made some pretty awesome friends over the past year who have been more than wonderful….. Older relationships that have gotten sweeter over time, new relationships that are easy to embrace, the kind where you’re able to be transparent and give/receive encouragement & support….  Strangers who only know this little space and my Insta have been so encouraging in our journey. It’s been beautiful.

These people love me… love us… love our girls. And, for that I will never be able to find the words that truly express how it makes me feel. To know that there are people who’re invested in your children and genuinely care for them is indescribable. You’re proud, humbled, and thankful – because you know people don’t have to.

There’s a confidence and a safety felt when you know people love you – the real you. When you’re angry. When you’re sad. When you’re going through hard times and just don’t feel like it. They don’t mind the quirks, the effort, the clumsiness, the imperfectness of your being.

It’s beautiful….
And, just realizing that it’s exactly what is asked of us to do. Love our neighbor as ourselves… to forgive and to give grace and patient and endure the tough and not so fun.

Working on being all of these things when I don’t quite “click” with the person and when I feel it’s undeserved. Working on it because you deserve it. Because there are other friends, women, and mamas who are struggling, who aren’t always at their best, who have some growing and maturing to do, girls who need a friend.

… here’s to sisters loving on sisters. Day in, day out. Loving hard, loving gently, loving relentlessly and reliably… no matter what!

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